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Dream 7:11am CST Sunday 19 November 2000 (dream) A tunnel for cars had just been partially unearthed. I walked down what was now a trough, toward an apparent underground series of tunnels; maybe a parking garage. I became frightened that I may be hurt by a car not expecting a person in the tunnels, so I climbed out of the trough and up a large oak tree. I recognized I was in the tree where no one had been before; I started out higher than ground level by climbing to the tree from the trough. I had found a nest of sorts, consisting of a nice padded layer of spanish moss in a naturally formed cup in the tree's branches. I climbed down so as to not disturb the nest, and because I didn't want to break any branches that were too small to support my weight. - - - A woman I had just met was becoming famous through her singing or performing and I was at the filming of one of her videos. There was a large crowd of onlookers and many people wanted to be chosen to be in her video. She walked along the crowd of people, selecting eager faces from the crowd. I played neutrally interested and when she looked at me, I gave a slight nod of my head, choose me. She did choose me, but said something like, if you get kicked out of the video then don't be upset. "If I get kicked out of the video, you will not be fired, so don't worry about it." On the way to the set, he hugged me and we barely kissed, but I was all, "Better not kiss me; if someone sees it, you'll get home and the phone will be ringing, or actually there will already be messages on your machine." We arrived at the set and there was one young man on the trampoline in pain; he had landed on the side because someone wasn't watching and blocking to keep him on the trampoline. The coach was berating those who hadn't paid attention, but no one was attending the injured person. So I asked him if I may touch him. He fearfully said yes (fearful of possible extra pain), and I laid my hands gently on his injured side. I blessed the healing process and encouraged him to trust that he would feel better. Once I finished, he got up and apparently did feel much better. We never got another chance to jump on the trampoline; a large bar was fixed over the trampoline, attached to poles sticking up at diagonal corners of it. We began taking the bar down when the scene shifted. I was looking at a poster and below it was a large 5 gallon bucket filled with candle wax drippings. jason 2:40am CST Monday 20 November 2000 Yesterday around 4pm, Jason came over on his way back from Austin to help sell to Wende the idea of us transferring several dollars to his brokerage with him as our broker. I'm totally cool with the idea, but Wende has some reservations. Anyway, Wende didn't get home until like 6:30 or 7, so while Jason and I hung out, we looked at pictures from SWUUSI and Erick's funeral, and he helped me vacuum the living room and kitchen rug. The funniest stinkiest thing in the world is when I farted and tried to use the vacuum to suck up the fart smell, but, in Jason's words, "it purified the fart smell and blew it all over the room." It was so funny!!!!! I was in tears laughing. I had suck a stinky fart because I basically ate a whole box of cereal Saturday night and yesterday morning. So Wende and I ate a pizza and Jason ate grapes once Wende got home and then Jason asked what would be our goal for the money and described therefore what he would suggest to do with it. His ideas were great and Wende and I told him. Once he left, I didn't bring it up at all for at least 30 minutes, but then finally asked how she felt. Wende said she felt very pushed and even felt angry on her way home from work knowing that Jason was going to be here. At that moment, I vowed, "fuckit; I won't say another word about it," but then realized that wouldn't really help the situation. The money needs to be moved to a more aggressive income vehicle. So I told her my initial reaction and subsequent thoughts. Then I got to hear more of the source of Wende's inaction - that she feels guilty moving the money away from our current person with the reasoning, "because you're not investing aggressively enough," when the truth is, Wende has asked him to invest more aggressively. Ahhh. That makes sense. I told her that I would have no problem calling him and asking to move the money. I'll offer to ask him to change the strategy, but I know in my mind I already think that's not going to work. prev day next day |