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happyTears

10:10pm CST Thursday 25 January 2001

Wende and I attended our third couples' counseling session today. During the session, I described how I often seem to have -*!boundless!*- energy and I don't always know what to do with it. While listening to me, our guy said it sounded like I have a desire for "instant gratification."

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Instant Gratification, like anything you want, you want right now.

That suddenly reminded me of my palm reading session with Richard Unger back some years ago, when he correctly assessed "you want to be able to wake up in the morning and say "airplane" and fly anywhere I want to in the world." He had a couple of other examples and all through it I was all, "yes yes yes! exactly so!"

Then he looked at my fingerprints and said, "in this lifetime, you are asked to build something for the world." As he said that, tears started to well up in my eyes - a combination of "oh my gosh that is so awesome" and "I always knew that; thanks for noticing" and "holy shit!"

Wende chimed in at this point as I relayed the story, "So Rob takes this phrase 'build something for the world' and thinks he has to build something for the world. He doesn't see how on a daily basis he so positively affects the lives of youth in YRUU.

Tears again began to well up as she said that.

Our counselor was all, "do you ever have Happy Tears?"

"Yes. like right now because I just love my youth so much. I'll do anything for them."

"Excellent. I'm going to give you a homework assignment. This is one you can do for the rest of your life: Every time you have Happy Tears, write it down. Keep a journal or something." [ed. note: little does he know!]

"Okay."

"Your Happy Tears will lead your life through the most wonderful journey imaginable."

"So then I think why am I in this stupid job?? and stuff."

"It's just a means to an end."

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I have heard all this before, except for the suggestion of writing down my Happy Tears moments. I can do that. I just did.