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Counseling

11:34am Thursday 26 April 2001

Counseling session this morning brought interesting concepts into focus. It used to be that when I would plan my day, I'd just write down a bunch of tasks, chores, Things To Do. I never included "hang out with Wende" or some variety like that.

Maybe, because my lists never included "hang out with Wende," maybe that's why I wouldn't sit down and make those lists. I would prefer to just sit and talk.

I dunno though. Wende and I have pretty limited free time together anyway, so it's been hard to schedule such moments with Wende. Maybe we should look at that.

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I seem to judge myself by how I think other people see me. I want to always be perfect - to say, do, act, the right way so that I'm doing what I think people think I should be doing. Sometimes. Sometimes I'm just me and everything is great. But underlying there is this need to be good for others so that I can be good or worthy. Something like that.

I'm not open to feedback on the above unless it's like, "I know what you mean." because the words above don't really capture what's in my head.

As my brother would say,
Back to work.