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State of my life

11:00am CDT Saturday 6 July 2002

State of My Life

Right at this very moment I sit in my apartment during the garage sale I'm having. One person has visited and bought a set of shelves and 4 books. My $/customer ratio is excellent!

Three more hours to go: plenty of time to have more folks visit.

In a week-sized scale, I'm selling my stuff and moving out of my apartment, intending to allow someone to take over my lease ($760) until December 31. I placed an ad in the Houston Press a couple weeks ago, and got a few phone calls, but nothing confirmed. Just today I placed an ad in the Houston Chronicle, which will run from Tuesay 9 July to Monday 22 July.

I've been archiving stuff that I hope to come back to when I've finished travelling (sp), choosing some stuff to come with me, releasing the rest, either selling or giving to friends and neighbors.

On a month-sized scale, I'm closing in on the final days in Houston. I lost my job in June and half-heartedly looked for a job, found nothing, decided to travel. My ex-company wasn't bringing in enough $ to afford all of us, so they let some people go to 1/2 time. They knew I was intent on leaving at the end of the year, so they let me go all the way. "Whoohooo!!" and "Oh no!! now what???"

On a year-sized scale, I was engaged to marry Wende on 21 June 2002. We had been engaged since 29 February 2000, but I started to get freaked and broke up with her in early September 2001. I realized that I have to travel and see (much) more of the world before I can settle.

I applied to be a youth group tour-guide to lead high school youth overseas, but I didn't have enough in-country experience to be accepted (I applied with US Experiment). So, I've decided to teach English in Japan for a year or two. Then I'll have enough in-country experience to lead trips to Japan.

I will also have approximately 1 million other opportunities be made available to me, so I'm not tied to simply giving youth group tours to Japan. That's in the multiple-years-away-future; I don't have a lot of plans for that far out.

Emotionally, I'm scared and excited and forging new experiences for myself. Learning a lot about how I act and react in different situations; discovering new qualities about myself.

I can't quite put these into words yet.