Entries this day: Alarmless Dream Jennifer_Nichols-Payne Work josephine zz

Alarmless

7:02am CST Wednesday 6 November 2002

I'm thankful to have awoken after 7 hours of sleep without an alarm. I fell asleep with a prayerful, "I'm thankful to wake up at the correct time tomorrow morning."

bing. I'm awake.

Dream

7:03am CST Wednesday 6 November 2002

With an ethnically diverse group of people at a SWUUSI Young Adult type situation, talking in a cabin in the woods after having witnessed a guy who was in charge of food try to fund something by stealing the remainder of alcohol from a party next door and everyone got mad at him for being so silly and thoughtlesss about this community.

As i walked upstairs with my plate/bowl of food, someone said, "so Rob," and I was surprised that they knew my name, "how do you rectify the fact that Cornfed is going to japan next year with your first impression that he was just a testosterone driven hick?"

"That's a good question," I stalled. "Hearing that sotry from him definitely changed my view of who he must be. I was quite impressed to hear that and I wold like to get to know him a lot better now.

interesting thing is that the woman who asked m e was referring to Cornfed having gone to Japan during the war, and I was referring to him going next year to teach English.

Jennifer Nichols Payne

2:11pm CST Wednesday 6 November 2002

Just had a meeting with Jennifer Nichols-Payne. She asked that we talk before Friday. Good job us.

She told me that while it was just adults who were complaining about me, she didn't really worry about it. However, she has heard directly from 2 or 3 youth, all female, who have said that they felt uncomfortable with me as an advisor - that I'm creepy or that I hugged them inappropriately. This is the first time I have heard that any youth have complained about me.

She said that she will talk to HAC-YAC and HARE, and try to get me to the rally as either a guest speaker or something else. I told her my preference would be, if I couldn't attend the whole rally because I don't have a church backing me as an advisor (and I don't have any teenage kids of my own (don't get any ideas)), to attend the Saturday night event, worship, talent show, Silent Football. I said, "and a hundred adults can watch me the whole time to make sure I don't do anything inappropriate; I don't care."

In another irony, she said that some people have sent her portions of my online journal, asking "should we be concerned about this?" referring to something I had written. How beautifully ironic. In the case she cited, she was all, "no," and the person apparently re-read it and was all, "oh, you're right."

I will definitely focus some time on allowing people to comment on my shit that I write in here. If you have concerns, write to me. I'm not a hard person to talk to.

So I've been gone for lunch too long already. I've got Eminem blasting in my car as I write this, wearing my hoodie though it's hot as fuck in here. Lots of sweat.

Thank you to Jennifer for having the balls to talk to me, even if it is just her doing her job.

Oh, she asked how I'd be with discussing advisor attendance at the CYA meeting. I told her I'd be fine; I won't freak out at the meeting. She further asked if I'd be okay with not attending part of the meeting if others in the meeting are uncomfortable talking in front of me. Certainly no problem; I have plenty of things to keep me entertained.

I only want what's best for the youth.

Work

5:37pm CST Wednesday 6 November 2002

Just getting off work at Prestonwood. I actually drove, so I'm about to drive back, but I don't seem to have the same (any) passengers.

But, the reason I'm writing is that as we were signing out, this cat named Pat was all, "who's Bob Nugen?" all loud and shit. I raised my hand and he goes, "if you ever write that kind of shit on the timesheet again you'll never work in this state again."

Wow.

I guess I shouldn't write "Pat is a big fucking moron" on the timesheet.

Of course, I didn't write that on the timesheet.

I had clocked out and back in for lunch at 12:45 and back at 2:30.

"You don't gotta write the damn minutes and seconds on this; just write the nearest hour."

"I like to be precise." What I might have said was, "I wanted to be honest that I took longer than 1 hour for lunch," but I didn't.

Now I'm wondering why oh why would he complain? Hard to add up times to the nearest 45 minute mark? Man, fuck him.

7:59pm

Wow. Getting home from work took 1.5 hours cause traffic was so stinky.

josephine

8:00pm CST Wednesday 6 November 2002

Josephine is so funny!!

I was all, "is it your night to do the dishes?" and she mocked me with a little "me me mme mee me me me meemee?" and I go, "cause I was thinking about helping you with them."

"Me me me meme meme meme me me me, what?"

She's secretly (actually it's no secret) just trying to do anything besides her homework.

zz

10:59pm CST Wednesday 6 November 2002

Well, I'm doing better on going to bed tonight than last night (midnight) and the night before (2am).

11:03pm

As I'm falling asleep, I'm thinking of my friend Kristen who has just passed the bar; she'll be a lawyer by the end of the month. Super congratulations to her.