Entries this day: Today Wisdom_gained

Today

5:29pm PST Wednesday 4 December 2002

Rick came over to take Sally to work today, so I just farted around a bit and then went to Nordstrom to pick up my suit. Got it with a slight delay since I didn't have my ticket; the guy with whom I spoke yesterday looked for the suit, then came back to confirm I still didn't have the ticket. Then he went back and found the suit. Whew.

In my mind, I wondered about getting all Strong Attitude if they couldn't find it, even though I didn't have the ticket, considering I had told him yesterday I didn't have it.

Then I shifted my thoughts; trusting that it would be found easily and simply.

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Worked on my resume, put a closing date on FSD and adding my latest adventures since FSD.

Watched Changing Lanes at Elizabeth's recommendation (Barbie's friend who I met in WV) and enjoyed it pretty well.

I just watched Changing Lanes, at your recommendation.  I really
enjoyed it; thanks for encouraging me to watch it.  The whole karma
between Samuel L Jackson and Ben Affleck's characters was pretty
impressive.  The movie showed me how making the "right" decision from
moment to moment can have profound effects on one's immediate future.

For the movie specifically, I mostly think that Ben Affleck's
character was bringing most of the negativity that existed into their
relationship.  Samuel L Jackson brought in some, but more often he was
the one trying to make everything right.

Then zipped over to Kinko's and printed 3 versions of the map to my interview tomorrow, copied the recommendations written by Dude, Maggie, Karla. Didn't get a recommendation from Kevin, though I may check in the morning to see if he got one to me in time. Probably not unless I wake up with plenty of time.

I'm at UCI now, picking up Sally after work.

5:44pm

Now I'm in Sally's office; she is still working a bit. She ate lunch today, so doesn't need the poptarts I brought just in case she had forgotten.

Wisdom gained

6:21pm PST Wednesday 4 December 2002

In the past I have predicted it; today I realize I am living it.

When I have far fewers things to do, things to focus on, I can take better care of myself, and have more time to care for others.

The only thing I've had to work on the past couple days is get ready for my interview tomorrow.

In two days, I have bought a new outfit, made some photocopies of old recommendations, updated and printed my resume.

I note a few assumptions about this:

~) Inexpensive technology of computers, internet, photocopiers has helped a lot.

!) Not having to work for food has helped a lot.

Number (!) may have great implications, all the way from having resources available, to this whole society I'm living in, where I can easily just wander in and out of Sally's apartment complex and her apartment to chill and munch and do whatever I want. Or that may all just be a facade for the universe simply providing me with that which I need to follow this life process.

@) There is a fine line; I could easily do too little and suddenly feel my life brings nothing of value to the world, that I am useless.

#) I've had to give up a lot to have so few responsibilities.

$) Giving up a lot is exactly what has given me such freedom.