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8:54am JST Saturday 24 May 2003

This morning was surprising to me; I expected to be totally dragging, but I totally woke up early-ish, with the sense of having had one hugemongous dream all night including problems with my bicycle, and people at work with me climbing on and cleaning a statue type thing or some old metal pipes, and climbing on some sand piles, with the sense that we might not oughta be doing that cause our climbing disrupted the natural nature of things there.

I woke up to find my light on and flashcards slightly crinkled to the side of my bed.

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I'm leaving for work a bit later than I have on past Saturdays, but I still will have plenty-ish of time to get ready.

Did not charge my computer last night so my battery is at 18%.

PM

8:31pm JST Saturday 24 May 2003

Kicked it with cats from work tonight. As we were leaving work, Carla was like, "are you guys going out?" or do you want to go get a drink or something and I'm like yeah cause I like Carla and wanted to hang out with her and tell her how genki I think she is with the kids and maybe get some insight from her on how to *not* do kids' classes (cause at this point I really don't want to do them) but I only barely got to do that cause she went to Wara Wara and joined all the other cats from our work who had already booked over there after work (and Benny and Ali didn't put all their files away) so... doh. But it's cool; I don't need to start any romantic intrigue thing even if it's not overtly romantic.

I left early (after only 4 mugs of OJ) to take care of myself and clean my room, which is what I had planned to do tonight anyway. But, like janette taught me, I can break any rules that I make and not feel guilty.

My rule right now, that I plan not to break, is that I gotta take a shower after I get home. pew!!!

Oh man, those guys are such fucking guys too. Talkin' about fucking Japanese women "it's not making love, it's fucking" and all this like crude-ish language that I'm just not embracing at this point in my life. Plus, some of them are married. And I'm not necessarily talking about the women they're apparently shagging.

Eek.

I wondered during one of my lessons (yesterday?) what it could be like if I got jiggy with a student, and I realized.. I was like, "okay, what would it be like right now if I had fucked this girl?" It would be SO totally uncomfortable for me and presumably for her to be in that situation pretending nothing had happened between us.. how can some of the teachers even think about doing that? Well, I know how, but damn, that would be so fucked up.

9:58pm

Oh man.

So, I took a shower, but now I've been reading National Geographic for an hour instead of cleaning my room. And now I seem to be on the computer instead of cleaning my room.

I also seem to have eaten 6 baby KitKat bars. Part of me wanted to save half of them for tomorrow, but most of me didn't. Or at least not the part that controls my hands and mouth.

I hope Eminem had a good show tonight. Full of inner peace and joy and some sort of positive growth experience.