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Grr

8:46am JST Saturday 19 July 2003

I woke up all grr this morning cause I have to go to work.

Grrr.

But I have successfully caught a train just in time this morning, and there's a seat for me to write, so that's better.

If I'm on my bike on the bridge as the train goes by on its bridge, then if I haul butt, I can make the *next* train, which is what I did today. Only thing is, from the bridge, I cannot distinguish which trains will stop at my station, and if the "next" train is an Limited Express train, then it won't stop at my station.

I'm a tiny bit sweaty; I hope I don't stink too much.

I showered this morning but I didn't shave, as my personal little way to break the rules. Oooh. What a rebel.

Work

6:23pm JST Saturday 19 July 2003

No awesome students nor classes today at work. The schedule was crammed because Jon M tupatsued (I don't think this is a Japanese term, but we use it at Nova to mean called in sick (or hungover)) and then it got even worse cause Benny tupatsued as well. I had two minutes to pull files and plan a lesson for 3 people, but it turned out okay because Carla had already pulled the files since she knew the lesson had to be covered. She had even selected a lesson that they could do.

Some of the worst language structure came from my two level 3 students. These fuckers should be able to speak quite accurately, but they could most certainly not.

bed

9:16pm JST Saturday 19 July 2003

Feel sad. too soggy to talk to janette. just want to sleep it all away. depressed it seems. surfing Amazon dot com, reading old emails, sluggishly not studying Japanese.

janette

11:19pm JST Saturday 19 July 2003

I feel much better after talking to janette for nearly 2 hours. First 20 minutes converted me from sad sad sleeping it all away mood to genki enough to get up and call her from the freephone.

Talked a ton and I cried a lot about how hard it is to learn Japanese and how I'm afraid I won't be able to do it, and I don't want to come back and not have learned Japanese cause I would call that failure and I don't know why I seem to have chosen a life without physical connections with anyone, etc etc cry cry cry.

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