Entries this day: Hm The_new_idea

Hm

8:53am JST Thursday 4 December 2003

I'm proud of myself and of who I am.

I'm proud of janette for doing her work.

I'm proud of myself for doing my work.

Today in the shower I mentally told Neil off in the break room. All Warrior, nothing sideways.

But I judge my work is not a safe container. It is, however, what I make of it.

I get that I'm losing some of the skills that I learned in my I-group. Less often do I integrate the 4-point protocol for clearing. I wonder about that.

(wonder how much is more a part of me than I know, if there are warriors in Japan, if I can bring it here (a project I've... hmmm (new idea brewing)), wonder if I'm just a silly rabbit)

The new idea

9:02am JST Thursday 4 December 2003

The old idea was to save Japan from itself. Fuck Japan. (*) I need this for myself.

The new idea: start going to 12 step meetings for myself. Start with AA, which I know exists in abundance in Tokyo, and see if there exists the 12 step meeting that I need. I wonder if I can start that meeting.

(What happened to riding roller coasters? I seem to only see one thing at a time and throw all my energy into it. _Rob's Roller Coaster Roundup_, janette, Miki, study Japanese, clean my room, 12 step meetings, work)

(*) Let Japan live at it has. From Jon:

I don't know when you wrote this, maybe it was early, but by now
you may know that Japan has a long history with Americans trying to
change Japanese culture, starting with Admiral Perry in the mid 19th
Century. They have succesfully resisted missionaries (the Koreans
became Presbyterians almost overnight) and total occupation and an
imposition of a constitution upon them by the United States. But the
underlying core of their culture is intact, based on their warrior
code, which dates back to the 13th century.