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Dreams

8:11am JST Sunday 4 January 2004

I was in a military jet with my dad flying and he was headed angled toward the ground it seemed and I'm like, "dad" and no change, "DAD!" and I hit him on the shoulder to make sure he was awake and he shifted slightly and he's like, "watch" and flying really slowly he tilted the plane on its side flying and flew through a Walgreens store in one door and out the other on the opposite side; not breaking anything as the doors opened properly and everyone moved out of the way. I was like wtf and he said that it was just something that he and his peers do and I shouldn't worry about it.

I asked him how he did it and he said he dropped the exhaust down to lowest mode and said it produced a lot of black smoke, so I said, "so is Walgreen's now full of smoke?" Like see it wasn't such a great non-interrupting thing after all, but oh well, hey.

and then a car drove by with a sign saying UPS TIX or TIX UPS in a strange font and then I saw a train go by and the last car was just the trucks of the train and it released itself so its momentum still carried it forward but it was lagging behind the train. and the train went along one branch of the tracks and then the track switched to the other dirction and then it switched so that the car trucks would push the train switch to the opposite side, because the train track technology didn't support switching the train switch automatically and they had to resort to this momentum driven truck to switch it, and the trucks ended up in a part of the tracks that no train can visit; like both its sets of wheels were on the wrong side of the rail; it would have to be manually retrieved later.

I went up to it to see what I could figure out about the technoogy, but I couldn't see anything different and the dream switched.

In a crowded shopping mall area and an old woman asked a guy for money and he said, "you'll be okay," and she bowed deeply to him and he turned away. I was like, I want to give you money old woman, but she had walked away as well. When she came back, she asked my friend who already had money out and I already had 1000 yen note out and gave it to her, and she smiled at me and her faced flashed a different striped color; like it changed hue for a moment, and I was like, "did you for face just change color?"

And without looking confused at such a strange question, she goes "no."

Which made me know it had changed color; otherwise she would have been "wha?" So I'm like "yes it did; your face just changed color. You're an alien!"

And my friend was like, "way to preach the truth" and I'm like, "please give me the 1000 yen back" cause I wanted to see her face change again, (and I was aware that I wouldn't act this way around a non-alien; I was aware I was committing speciesism) and I took the 1000 yen from her hand and she made a contorted face attempt to not change her face, (like the alien posing as Bruce Willis' character in Fifth Element), and then I gave her the 1000 yen back to see if it changed again, and then I was like, "give me all your money" and she was like, "no" and I took it from her and she tried to not change and contorted her face in all kinds of ways for about 10 seconds before recovering, and I gave her the money back and woke up.

10:56am JST Sunday 4 January 2004

Was in a waterslide type thing that was shaped like a staircase and had flat landings where the water turned and then ramps that went angled down to the next landing. I wanted to make a pool out of the landing below and basically tried to push all the water off the current landing and I was really heartened by Benny saying, "I think it's a great idea," and I wanted him to watch me and be impressed with the huge pool I made in the lower landing, but he had already slid down the slide and I woke as I was trying to get his attention.

Now

12:23pm JST Sunday 4 January 2004

Just now I have finished the State of My Life from yesterday and find myself unwanting to work on my suggested tasks. I'm stuck on this sticky machine type type typing. I want to erase all these confused feelings with a good orgasm that will just put me to sleep.

I'm going to close this computer, and (aha! part of it is that I need to go pee. That need to pee draws my attention to my crotch and I sometimes mistake it for a need for sexual release. It's just a need for physical release.)

Okay, I'm going to close this computer, go peeee, then sit and bathe these concerns with love and trust for a brighter future.

miki

12:22am JST Monday 5 January 2004

Went out with Miki tonight. Spent nearly 2 hours studying. Money. Learned some good kanji and conjugations:

着る　着た　着ない　着なかった

etc; my brain is too tired to remember them all without my flashcards right now.

We watched Bruce Almighty, which left me feeling happy and empowered. I wonder how much I'm really affected by movies. I wonder if I should just rate movies on how good they make me feel. After leaving this movie, I felt empowered to change my job and my apartment and I felt like I was doing fabulously in Japan. Thank you, movie.

I gave Miki her art thing that I colored some weeks ago. She spent several minutes just looking at it, which makes me really happy to think that she likes it that much. I'm really glad about that.

There's a new radio station that broadcast for maybe an hour on 71.6fm from behind the water fountain at Cinecitta. Yes, strange on my counts.

So, Miki. I felt friendly with her, and we held hands outside walking around, but no real sparks or long term ideas. Just walked around. I invited her to hang at my apartment, but she wouldn't go because Dan might be here. I'm like, "it's cool; he hangs with students too," but she wasn't having it.

We saw some footbags in Tokyo Hans, but I didn't buy one. I wanted to feel them first to check the quality.

I came home to find Dan and Lubo here, both creating art. Dan was painting and Lubo is composing a collage of train tickets into the kanji for Japan 日本。 I was in such a good mood I just let Dan use my paints and brush (in addition to his that he was already using) and it's all great here in the Bell Wistaria Art House.

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Oh, ps: while running up the stairs from Azalea to Cinecitta, I tripped and kicked the crap out of the steps and stubbed my big toe, bruising it quite effectively and bending the nail to make a white line on it. It bled a bit from under the nail. I don't think I'll lose the nail, but I might.

It's interesting to have hit this nail; just yesterday my big toe nail poked through a hole in my sock and 裕子 commented on it. I told her I'm saving my pedicure for janette.

'cept I didn't use the word pedicure.

train in Houston

1:14am JST Monday 5 January 2004

Yay. The first train in Houston is now open.

   Moments later, the train came to an unexpected halt at the Ensemble
   station, about midway along the route. "This train is out of
   service, please unload this train," came the announcement.
   Conductors on the platform said someone had pulled an emergency
   brake. "Folks," one said, "do not pull this hammer. Nobody can go
   anywhere."

NY Times (login required)

The article downplayed FIVE traffic accidents in past two weeks during testing as cars cut in front of the trains, etc. Nutso.