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State of My Life

12:08pm JST Saturday 24 July 2004

State of My Life Address

1. I'm in a grumpy mood.

2. I'm working at Gaba. If I had no qualms about ditching work, I could be working for Jen's uncle right now. Making more money for less work.

3. I want a cool project of my own to work on. There are *many* such projects in my mind, and a few in progress, and I don't seem to be able/willing/happy to focus on one project for any duration.

   What kind of job is good for people with short attention spans? Answering that question could make zillions.

4. My collection of Rody horses and cowboys is down to 9 horses and 2 cowboys. 1 horse should come back with Yasuko when I see her again; she took it to Hong Kong during her business trip there.

5. I was wondering what I want in a life situation. I was wondering about the different things I can do in life. Like things in general:

   • learn
   • teach
   • think
   • build
   • carry
   • relax

   So that's data into my brain; data out of my brain; data manufactured in my brain; making things; moving things; and sitting on things.

   Everything else is just a variant. (except perhaps destroying things but I couldn't think of a five letter version, and I don't want to destroy things)

Where's Jackie Purdy? She knows what I'm feeling now. Lots o people do, but she seems to be a lot lot lot like me.

6. physical, mental, emotional, spiritual... any others?

7. I just want to sleep.

8. There's got to be some ....

9. 8:06pm

   I wrote the State of My Brain entry, and now I'm back to this entry. The point is that I want some kind of feedback about what is the optimal thing to do. My brain is toying around with free will here, and so far, as before, I've come to the conclusion that free will is exactly free will and there is no input, and there are no consequences for our actions. No ultimate burn-in-hell consequences. We just run around on earth doing things to ourselves and each other and in the end, just sit back and laugh or cry about it. No problem. No rejection by god.

10. Uh oh; I need to go back to the brain entry: