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4:36am JST Monday 20 December 2004

Hitomi, actually I think it was Wende, reminded me that we were leaving town before the movie was due, but we would be back after the movie was due, so I should be careful to remember to turn it in on time. I told her I would remember and set out to write a list of things to do before leaving town.

I found a sheet of paper I could use; on one side it had lists of genealogy names beginning with names related to me, and then names related to them, so the first name on each list was a family name I had heard of in my family, and the names after that were names in their families, and though most of the names were unique, there were some repeats, and some names like, "Coe" that I knew from other places (high school).

I had written the names down with Jon Whitten-lege one day, and now it seemed I didn't need the list, so I was going to use the other side of the piece of paper to write my list of things to do before leaving town.

1: take the movie back
2: feed

and I was going to write "the cat" when I suddenly remembered I had forgotten to feed the fish, and I had been continuing to forget to feed the fish for a long long time, long enough that the fish, I feared, could be dead.

We were in our house on Methil, and I was near the windows facing the back yard. I ran over to the fireplace area to the fishtanks, and I found the fish were eating food already.

flakes of food had recently been put in all three or four tanks, and the fish (angel fish) were eating happily and hungrily. I watched one fish chowing and noticed stacks of bills (cash) in the fish tank, and little cutouts of an image of Death in the bottom of the tank. The stacks of bills were newly minted, and on the edge of each stack was a image painted such that each bill would have a different fraction of the painting on its edge. This was a security measure and a way to make stacks of bills more beautiful and numismatically valuable.

and these stack s of bills were in the fish tank. All 3 or four fish tanks had them.

Weird.

I went over to Ma and I was like, "hey Ma, there are stacks of bills in the fish tanks. what's up with that?"

And she said that since we were living in Japan, they (Ma and dad) had tried to learn some of the local customs, one of which was to put stacks of cash in fish tanks. This helped keep the water clean, for one thing, and represented wealth in the family.

The little figure of Death in the bottom of the pool represented life (fish) living with death, (Death) in a grand cycle, and the fish not geting freaked out about it is to remind us not to freak out; death happens, so chill.

Ma assured us there were many many such customs, and they had tried to research some. She told us that Japanese culture has been around for a long time and it became corrupt when it encountered South American cultures,

and I was transported to a scene in South America in Colombia where some bad guys had taken to paying off the mafia by taking out mafia payment insurance with other mafias, and it was just beoming a viscious cycle. I didn't know who was good nor bad, and this one guy who I thought was on my team after I had seen him as the protagonist for this little bit of the movie as he was snooping across the wooden floor of the traditional Japanese cabin

oops

4:58am

I took a long time to think of a better word than "cabin" and now I'm falling asleep again.

Emiem lyrics going through my head "what if he pictured it as a female's butt"

okay, back to the dream,

The good guy walked from right to left across the screen from a quiet empty room to a more happenin' room and someone was watching him from the sidelines; either a stalker or a bodyguard, and then that guy was gone and a different good/bad guy turned out to be a bad guy with a grudge against me, and I was defensless in this world and I hoped the other guy would come in at just the right moment, but the bad guy threw an icepick at me and it hit me in the side, he snottily pointed out directly in the middle of his target (me) and I was like "grr" and I woke up.

Gateway data1 obe dream

5:25am JST Monday 20 December 2004

CD/track             Wave I / Discovery 5: Exploration, Sleep
body position        flat on back with legs bent
CD player            Panasonic SL-CT510
headphones           Audio-Technica ATH-T3
ambient temperature  20 C
clothing             socks, underwear, white T-shirt, red shirt with collar
working nostril(s)   left (slightly)
emotional state      calm, tired but awake
physical             
head                 fine
stomach              happy, though I could eat
pain/soreness        left middle finger, right knee a bit tight 
phone/door	     off/locked
time allowed	     many hours
ambient light	     nearly none
ambient noise	     nearly none
date/time            5:29am JST Monday 20 December 2004
location	     Millenium House, room 20

(6:45am)

(written at 8:57am)

I fell asleep near the end of the exercise, but woke slash became conscious at the beginning of the next one. I chose to continue listening slash sleeping.

Near the end of one of the exercises, Monroe's voice woke me, maybe saying something about "float" and I found myself in a dream situation able to fly, but I wasn't like superman all fast, but just floating, and then I felt myself slowly reconnecting with my body. Nice: my first conscious OBE since about 10 years ago. I couldn't tell if I was going out or coming into my body at first, but then I felt myself well grounded and in and a little bit vibrational. But the vibrations, again, were different than 10 years ago. These were much more subtle.

9:08am JST Monday 20 December 2004

I slept and dreamt after the exercises.

In a school type situation, where I was new to the area, but it turns out it was a prison. I was in a wrong area with some others, out in the rocky vallied terrain where some trains would occassionally rush. The people who had been in the prison longer were more comfortable with the trains, not nervous about being squashed or seen like I was.

I hypothosize now that maybe they didn't mind dying; the prison may have been boring; they could use the train to get out permanently.

I was on top of a train with a woman, kinda holding her, and I said, "things are about to change around here; I came with some really good people who will make a difference," she seemed happy to hear that, and, possibly, believed me.

The trains drove into a building with small French doors for the trains to go through. The trains were small, so we had to duck to get into the building, where there were lots of ladders and things to climb, and a general store (closed) and post office window (also closed). We were there at night and on of my new friends was standing right on the track as I was climbing up a ladder, and I could see a train was coming. I told my friend, but they didn't move, so I was like, "so get off the track!" and they moved, but not like, [oh man, thanks for telling me] but just moved as the train came. This train was smaller than the freight train that had come through; it was no wider than the track. The train saw my friend standing there, and with a growly face put its arms out and tried to stop itself from going out of the room, bracing against the doorframe, but its momentum was too great, and my friend was like, "bah" and kicked at the train's arms and it flew on through the door. Apparently being seen by a train (of that size/shape/character) wasn't important. I wondered why they weren't concerned about the train reporting the sighting; maybe it would forget as soon as it left the area.

Nihongo

2004年12月20日11:53(月)

部屋に出きって、ロボやきを料理した。ロボやきは卵やウィナやチーズです。 しょこさんとのりこさんとリチャドさんと話しました。私は 「今から、英語は分からない。」

gateway data2

12:44pm JST Monday 20 December 2004

CD/track             Wave I / Discovery 5: Exploration, Sleep
body position        flat on back with legs bent
CD player            Panasonic SL-CT510
headphones           Audio-Technica ATH-T3
ambient temperature  21 C
clothing             socks, underwear, white T-shirt, red shirt, gap hoodie, knit cap
working nostril(s)   right
emotional state      calm, wide awake
physical             tight back muscles
head                 fine
stomach              happy
pain/soreness        left middle finger
phone/door	     off/locked
time allowed	     1.5 hours
ambient light	     daylight through curtains
ambient noise	     resident noise occassionally
date/time            12:47pm JST Monday 20 December 2004
location	     Millenium House, room 20

2:07pm

Zzzzzzzz. I fell asleep.