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Helpful

11:21am JST Wednesday 05 January 2005

I think I will go to one of the tsunami decimated areas in March. I imagine there will be plenty of work still to be done. In the past, I have felt... ooky about not going to help when fucked up things have happened. Of course I recognize that I'm not going now, but there is ..... what is it..? this rule that says my committment to work is more important. Beneath that is a fear around money, that if I don't keep my word, then I'll lose the possibility of coming back, etc..

There is also an aspect of saying bye to my peeps and my stuff; this is a similar issue to what I went through when I left my apartment in Houston.

(Jen points out that there's also a likelihood that if I (she) went *now*, we would just be an annoyance: more people who need food.)

Okay, so let's plan this:

I'll leave on 26 March, Colleen's birthday and two years to the day that I left Dallas for Japan.

I need to get rid of my junk: ship some stuff back to the US (to janette and Maggie, probably), toss a lot and give away the rest locally.

There are four knotboards in my room; a couple of them are pretty big. I'd like to sell those via an online auction. I should just hook that shit up and quit worrying about maximizing my profit.

There are lots of letters and shit that I want to keep, but will probably never process.

I should also

oops I forgot what I was going to say.

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I scoped a google answer about how to volunteer.

bike dummy

6:14pm JST Wednesday 05 January 2005

Crap. Mimibike was towed again today. I parked her near the station. I remained in a relatively chipper mood, knowing I was about to pay 2500 yen (for the third time) for a bike I bought for 3000 yen in the first place. Even learned the name of the guy at the place. (What a crap job he must have.) Shimizu.

My good mood was lost when, as a result of having paid 2500 yen for the bike, I couldn't afford 540 yen worth of groceries. Fuck.

gateway data

7:43pm JST Wednesday 05 January 2005

CD/track             Wave III / Freedom 1: Lift Off
body position        flat on back with legs bent
CD player            Panasonic SL-CT510
headphones           Audio-Technica ATH-T3
ambient temperature  17 C and rising
clothing             socks, red flannel pants, thick long sleeve shirt, YRUU hoodie, Hitomi-knit cap
working nostril(s)   both, sorta
emotional state      calm, a tad tired
physical             tight neck muscles
head                 fine
stomach              a little ooky
pain/soreness        
phone/door	     off/locked
time allowed	     all night
ambient light	     almost none
ambient noise	     gas heater
date/time            7:48pm JST Wednesday 05 January 2005
location	     Millenium House, room 20

8:56pm JST Wednesday 05 January 2005

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz woke up in the middle of the second exercise. fell back asleep and woke up just now.

late dream

11:27pm JST Wednesday 05 January 2005

Dear Cabin 5

There is no direct correlation between the activites in your
neighborhood with the consumption of mushrooms  for medicinal
purposes.  If this seems shocking, it should be.  We provide a
service to help relieve this problem.  However, we have not heard from
you regarding this matter.  Shall we remove you from our list?  Don't
wait too long.

Cabin 6

Someone like Jesse and another guy and I spent several minutes crafting an email that we intended primarily as a meaningless joke, but that could possibly be interpreted as real and could possibly net us some money on the net. We were in the backyard underneath a canopy type thing and directing the letter to a neighbor who lived caddycorner to us. We basically finished the letter, and the guy from whom we were borrowing bandwidth was in the booth next to the canopy and he provided for us, as a service, some printouts, which were basically printouts of versions of the document printed about once every two minutes.

Oh crap; there will be no hiding our activities. Maybe we should rethink this thing.

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After a previous dream, I woke up feeling wow;

that is really nice; we can start a large helpful program this way. janette can be there for support and this thing could really go. I should write it down.

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

I remembered the grandness of the dream while writing down the previous dream and wrote this to try and recover it:

grand dream janette yellow blue large statelike entity with a grand pattern

me and cesar email

1:31am JST Thursday 06 January 2005

Cesar to me:

Hola Rob,

 Je te souhaite une magnifique nouvelle annŽe, avec beaucoup de
 succs et entourŽ de le gens que t'aime !

 J'ai passŽ les vacances avec la famille, tranquil mais maintenant
 il faut travailler, ...

 J'Žtais trs curieux et j'ai lu ta web, et tu parlais de runes,
 blank runes É Je suis aussi trs curieux sur a mais je voudrai
 savoir que tipe de runes tu veux, de que type de civilisation, car
 chaque peuple et civilisation a les siens.

 Ton intŽrt viens de tes connaissances historiques, ou ton
 esprit Indiana Jones reviens fort ?

 JÕattend tes nouvelles avec impatience et donne un salut a tout le
 monde de ma part,

 

 CŽsar

 

 Ps : SÕil te pla”t, redonne-moi le mail de Jeff,

My reply to Cesar:

Cesar!

Gracias por tu email en francais.  yo y ayuda de Jen leando (leer + we
+ past) el email.

Al nuevo ano yo duerme (dormir + me + past) al 11:30pm.

Mis runes son del un libro de Senor Ralph H Blum: "The Book of Runes"
El libro es nuevo runes del los Vikings.  El Blank Rune no es un
Viking Rune, es un nuevo rune de Senor Blum.  El Blank Rune es
"unknowable" y "divine" Senor Blum escriba (escribir + he + past).

Mis espanol es terrible, pero es mejor de aquesto.  (better than I
thought it would be)

Gateway is a set of CDs that make up an "in-home training program for
develping, exploring, and applying expanded states of awareness."

"You will be gently led (via sounds and verbal suggestions) from your
physical waking state into deep relaxation then to those thresholds of
consciousness where you may experience profound states of expanded
awareness.  While in such states, one has a borader range of
perceptions available with which to solve problems, develop creativity
or obtain guidance.  You may use this expansion and integration of
personal awareness to know and better understand your total self so
you might enjoy a more fulfilling life."

I am using the gateway CDs as a research tool so I can learn more
about what is beyond this physical world.  I hope to do something good
for the world in this manner.

I look forward to hearing from you soon!

Take care.
      - Rob

Ima Jeff-san wa neimas.  Dakara kare no email morenai.  Ashta moremasu
kamoshirenai.

(I hope this means "Now, Jeff is sleeping.  Therefore, I can't get his
email.  Maybe I can get it tomorrow." in Japanese.)

nother try gateway data

12:37am JST Thursday 06 January 2005

I've slept for a few hours. I'm going to try again:

CD/track             Wave III / Freedom 1: Lift Off
body position        flat on back with legs bent
CD player            Panasonic SL-CT510
headphones           Audio-Technica ATH-T3
ambient temperature  20 C
clothing             socks, red flannel pants, thick long sleeve shirt, YRUU hoodie, Hitomi-knit cap
working nostril(s)   right
emotional state      calm, a bit tired
physical             fine
head                 fine
stomach              fine
pain/soreness        
phone/door	     off/locked (after I just sent a reply to Miho L3)
time allowed	     all night
ambient light	     almost none
ambient noise	     gas heater fan
date/time            12:52am JST Thursday 06 January 2005
location	     Millenium House, room 20

1:23am JST Thursday 06 January 2005

Stayed conscious through that one. Before he encouraged lifting in the balloon, I worked on visualizing my energy bar on and off, which, last time, seemed to induce a vibrational state for me. I felt around for a physiological equivalent to visualizing it on and off. I found something, but don't know how they correlate.

My body was quite sleeping during the verbal floating suggestions, and I noticed my legs and then my arms felt that discomfortable feeling that I've associated with super exercise during the day and then going to sleep. Like my legs just want to move. Is that feeling my legs not inside my physical legs? Goodness knows I didn't exercise very much today, and I definitely know the feeling wasn't there before I started and nearly isn't there now, except for one point in my left hip.

I tried visualizing my hands touching my heater, and visualized pushing myself out of body with my energy bar, and visualized tying it to a column in Musashikosugi station and rubberbanding myself over there. Neither of those things seemed to work they way I hoped they might.

As the exercise started, I decided I wanted to post the email I received from Cesar in French, and my reply, partially in Spanish, and a tiny bit in Japanese. I made a mental note for myself to remember that. That worked. I also made a mental Focus 12 request to remember the dream I had a few hours ago.

one more gateway data

1:55am JST Thursday 06 January 2005

CD/track             Wave III / Freedom 3: Vectors
body position        flat on back with legs bent
CD player            Panasonic SL-CT510
headphones           Audio-Technica ATH-T3
ambient temperature  20 C
clothing             socks, red flannel pants, long sleeve shirt, SWD YRUU hoodie, Hitomi-knit cap
working nostril(s)   right
emotional state      calm, a bit tired
physical             tight back muscles
head                 fine
stomach              fine
pain/soreness        none
phone/door	     off/locked
time allowed	     all night
ambient light	     almost none
ambient noise	     almost none (I turned my heater off)
date/time            1:56am JST Thursday 06 January 2005
location	     Millenium House, room 20

2:31am JST Thursday 06 January 2005

I was awake for a lot of that, but not the end. I didn't seem to be able to move/go/perceive in the different directions suggested. At the very end he was all, "... consciousness. Do it now." so I woke up. Groggy and didn't want to write this, but did it in the name of science. (what does that mean? "in the name of...")