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Gateway data

11:20am JST Tuesday 25 January 2005

Getting back to the basics.

CD/track             Wave I / Discovery 2: Introduction to Focus 10
body position        flat on back with legs bent
CD player            Panasonic SL-CT510
headphones           Audio-Technica ATH-T3
ambient temperature  15 C
clothing             red flannel pants, black sweatpants, white T-shirt, GAP hoodie, Hitomi-knit cap
working nostril(s)   left
emotional state      calm
physical             tight back muscles, a bit tired
head                 fine
stomach              fine
pain/soreness        
phone/door	     off/locked
time allowed	     plenty
ambient light	     daylight through curtains
ambient noise	     construction noise outside my window
date/time            11:22am JST Tuesday 25 January 2005
location	     Millenium House, room 20

12:04pm JST Tuesday 25 January 2005

Fell asleep while he was putting our various bodyparts to sleep. For a momentmy brain was awake while he wasfinishing up Focus 10. A couple of times I drifted bewteen sleep and awake aswe approachced that point.

During the buildup to Focus 10, going through Focus 3, I realized I had not been really doing all those things in the previous exercises... in the exercises I have done recently that are more advanced, I have not done all the basics.

Journal

3:24pm JST Tuesday 25 January 2005

Hitomi called me and was like "I read your journal; you don't understand me; don't write about me in your journal; it would be okay if no one else could read it."

And I'm like, "if you don't want to be in my journal, don't be in my life."

We hung up and I texted her to cancel our Hokkaido trip (this brings me some sadness, but I can go a different year, I'm sure) and get her stuff out of my room tonight and I will never meet her again.

Light

1:40pm JST Tuesday 25 January 2005

When I was little .. like 8-12 years old, I would lie down and just stare at a light until my eyes blocked it out (protecting themselves, I imagine) and if I looked away I would see a dark spot at that point in my vision. But if I didn't look away, after a while I would feel a pleasantly strange oscillation of like .5 HZ. Sometimes it would feel like my body was oscillating and slowly tipping backwards, like I was melting into the floor. I rarely have that experience of oscillations anymore... but I rarely stare at lights for indefinite periods of time anymore. I wonder if I could induce the experience again...

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I tried yesterday, but didn't have the same experience.

the girl with the pearl earring

11:28pm JST Tuesday 25 January 2005

So far, this is a terrible movie.