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Genki Man Dan

8:33am JST Saturday 26 February 2005

Genki Man Dan is in town! He arrived at my room at 6:30 or something; I was in no state to wake up really, but gave him a hug and offered to have him come in and chat until I wake up. He chose to go downstairs and chill.

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Yesterday he called me from Kei's cell phone and asked me to email him Jen's phone number to that number, but I have my phone in Japanese mode and thought he had called from a 03 number which is not possible to mail to, so I thought he meant his yahoo account.

Nightmare. But oh well; it was just a silly thing piled on top of other silly things that kept him out for a night with kei instead of hanging with us.

He's going to visit OM with us tomorrow. Actually he and Tetsuya are ; it'll be a party! OM is out of town in OZ this weekend..

This morning I had a dream after Dan woke me up.

Genki dream

8:39am JST Saturday 26 February 2005

I went downstairs to get ready and found Dan doing laundry in the main hallway; he was trying to find some coat hangers to use, but there was something wrong with them for some reason.

OM

4:17pm JST Saturday 26 February 2005

Work was pretty good today. OM kept calling from Australia to see how things were going, but we handled it all and got all settled fully an hour before we usually do. Sweet. I rocked out of there early; I had gotten 4 units of data entry done. (Usually I can get 2 or 3 done per day, but these were smallish.)

Jen talked a lot about Dan being back in town. He and Tetsuya may come visit us tomorrow.

Satoko

4:19pm JST Saturday 26 February 2005

I was certain that Satoko had asked me if we could hang out tonight, the 26th. I replied back affirmatively but didn't hear from her during the day today. I called her and she was like, "today?" and says she never sent such an email. I'll look again; I wonder if/who I'm supposed to meet..

hitoe

1:56am JST Sunday 27 February 2005

I talked to Hitoe a bit after Shoko's show at R in Kawasaki. She was like, "how are you able to write all about your life online?" and "do you write everything??"

And I explained (1) that if I ever become famous, and people are all like, "oh Rob you're so great; I could never be as cool as you," I can point to my website and be like, "look; I'm a big fat dumbdumb just like everyone else. You can do whatever you want." (2) if I ever have kids, and they have kids, my grandkids can read my diary and be like, "wow; grampa was a bad kid just like us!"

We all have problems and issues and stuff; here are some of mine.

But, there is a hidden 5% that I don't write. All my sex addiction stuff and fixation on sex and fixation on women and how recently I've been thoroughly wonder/ponder/thinking of Hitomi vs Satoko vs Sally. I could easily happily date Satoko, but I told her that I'm not in a place where I can have a real relationship. I could easily happily date Sally, but we happen to live on opposite sides of the Atlantic. I am currently with Hitomi, but I have told her that I definitely won't marry her.

My entire life seems to focus on the search for the perfect woman, a creature that exists only in my mind, and who will always trump those who I meet. I don't like that I have been this way with Hitomi, but that doesn't seem to be stopping me. I don't like spending hours searching for just the image that will send me over the orgasmic edge, but that doesn't seem to stop me. I don't like the idea of being drunk and out of control with alcohol. And that has absolutely stopped me from drinking too much. I don't like the idea of tainting my body with drugs. That has stopped me from ever taking them. But sex... you are the perfect drug. (Thanks, Trent.)

Thanks Hitoe for giving me the guts to begin writing my 5%.

konya nihongo

2005年02月27日0時45分(日)

仕事の後、晶子ちゃんのライブを見に川崎に行きた。入った時ユミちゃん は「いらしゃいませい、ミレニウムハーウスに住むですか。」彼女はハジェメ タの時覚えた。晶子にも話して、食べ物を発注した。後、ジェンもテツさんも アイ子さんも来た。皆さんは私の場所で座った。

いっぱい話して、晶子の音楽聞いて、食べて、遊んだ

あっ、大変、もちょっと早い書けなければならない。（１：３２です。）

マッテオさんは私たちの場所来て下さいと言った。そこで一重さんといっ ぱい日本語で話した。マッテオはカラオケに行こうといていた。だけど、お酒 飲んだすぎ。

帰った時彼は電車で寝た。だから、皆さんは座らなかった。ちょっと大変 そう思た。だから一重さんは「マッテオ、ちょっとがんばっていいんだけど。」 彼はイタリア語で「死んで」と言った。わっ。

一重さんはすごくいい人と思います。はじめて時私は彼女がすごく好き。 まだ同じ。

zzzzzzZZZZZZZZZZ!!!!

3:04am JST Sunday 27 February 2005

Hitomi texted me after midnight and I didn't see it. Best I can understand, she wanted to know what time I could meet her tomorrow after I had already told her 7pm.

Then, at 2 fucking 45 in the fucking morning she texted me AGAIN, cancelling our date for tomorrow, I believe because I hadn't answered her.

My last text message (8:30pm ish) I tried to say, "I don't know; let's talk about it tomorrow."

This is so stupid; I just want to sleep now. nevermind.