Entries this day: Dream hit_Hitomi

Dream

8:59am JST Wednesday 20 April 2005

Hitomi and I were riding a freight train back home; we were up on the top of a car, between two large I-beams that prevented anyone from seeing us. The weather was really warm as we rode, but then it started sprinkling a nice summer sprinkly rain while the air was still warm. We didn't have to worry about getting our clothes wet since we weren't wearing any. I just basked in the sun and rain on the train as we headed back home. Hitomi was worried that we would be caught by someone as we headed into the city, but I told her not to worry; that we could get off anytime she felt nervous.

One of the I-beams was no longer there, so it would be easier for us to be seen, and I was a bit worried that the remaining I-beam would smush us if it was no longer counter-balanced by its partner. But the straps seemed to hold it in place.

We began to arrive in Futaktamagawa and Hitomi was really nervous, but I told her not to worry. Then I noticed the train seemed to have left the tracks and was driving along the street. It seemed strange, but I was sure it couldn't be true; the train was too heavy for such a thing. Hitomi was scared and told me she wanted to get off, and reminded me about my promise to get off if she wanted, so we did and I had clothes on, but she didn't, and I just kinda hugged her to me as we walked away from the crowds. No one saw us get off the train.

hit Hitomi

1:07am JST Thursday 21 April 2005

Fuck. I hit Hitomi and I feel really bad about it.

During bedtime preparations, I asked her which P-B DVD she wanted to watch; she had requested that we watch one of them today. (she's been requesting this for a while) and we were somewhat busy today cleaning my room and researching stuff for P-B and eating and watching movies and we never watched either DVD.

I couldn't understand what she was saying, but when we finally talked I got that she felt she had been waiting all day to watch, but we never got a chance because I was on the computer all day.

I told her what I heard her say, men's group style, and then asked her what she wanted right now. She said she didn't know. I was about to fall asleep, so I was like, "well, I want to go to sleep." She goes, "おやすみ" (good night) and rolled over to sleep.

I fell to that point of asleep where it's not 100% but definitely not awake and she kicked her leg back at me in a last-stab type gesture. I was already hot and already asleep and I kicked her back and struck my arm down on her hip. pow.

Oh damn. I'm sorry; I told you I would never hit you, but I did. I didn't control my anger during my sleep.