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Stars

11:31pm EST Tuesday 26 July 2005

Gazing at the stars, very happily between Natalie and Katt, when Hitomi came up, blocking my view, asking me if I can answer some computer question and I hear everyone going "ooooh" that shooting star went by and I started to get mad and I'm like, get the fuck outta here!!

After the stargazing I went down and answered her question which took all of a second and bitched at her for interrupting the stargazing "you wouldn't stand in front of me if I was watching a movie, would you?" "I know I'm sorry; I thought about that later." Well think about it first before being so annoying!

She cried and ultimately told me she spends every day trying to think of ways to talk to me. I'm thinking come on; get over me.

State of my life

10:48am EST Tuesday 26 July 2005

State Of My Life Address

1. I'm on Pb's 49th Global Voyage, and we just left Jamaica yesterday. We're headed for Panama now.

2. I haven't written anything in my journal for a while, but I've been pretty diligently recording audio tapes of what I intend to transcribe slash adapt into online journal entries. In Jamaica I started recording tape number 23. For transcribing, I have finished tape 3.

3. I've been so busy slash out of touch with the real world that I didn't even write a card to my dear Maggie who got married on the other side of the Gulf of Mexico from us.

4. I've received postcards or letters from Kellie in nearly every port! She has easily been my most avid off-boat supporter, and I've really appreciated her time and attention.

5. Just now (12:38pm) (I thought) I was in line to chat with Mariko about working for slash helping Pb in the near future. I hadn't gotten a timeslot for talking to her (because I haven't seen really seen her since she got on the boat in Jamaica) but a couple people had. I heard a rumor that she would be in Hemmingway from 11am to 2pm chatting with people. Went down there, found her and waited a fair distance away so I wouldn't be annoying, and when she became free I walked up as she and Audrey were getting up to leave. "Did you have a meeting?" "No." "Okay; just really crazy, dude."

   They're busy. I get that. Should I have been annoying and be like, "me too me too!" ? Should I have not waited? Should I just fucking get over it?

   I think my angst stems from my assumption that the people who got meetings scheduled with her had them scheduled at the party last night, which I didn't attend cause it didn't interest me.

6. I still haven't decided what I'll be doing after Pb (September 1st). A vague outline idea is:

   1. hang out in Japan slash US until the 24-26 September peace march on Washington.

   2. go live in Palestine and work for an NGO there for a month or two.

   3. go back to Japan for 52nd Pb voyage preparations

   4. go on 52nd Pb Voyage (6 January - early Aprilish)

7. I've now climbed Dunn's Falls in Ocho Rios, Jamaica, as Armstrong suggested it would be the coolest thing ever. It was definitely cool, and definitely way more cool than it would have been had I stuck with the group, but, it was not as cool as Wailua Falls on Kawai'i (sp), Hawai'i.

8. My camera lost its shutter button, so I replaced it with a thumbtack and a sticker to hold it in place. It works well enough that: (!) I won't need to replace the button with a "real" one; (@) it works in my underwater camera case.

9. I've been taking *far* fewer pictures at each port recently. I took jillions in Egypt. I took maybe 30 in Jamaica.

10. The boat is rocking quite a lot today; it's putting me to sleep.

11. In New York, I made a decision to no longer have sex with people whose HIV / disease status is unknown to me. The logic was based on my disapproval of people who smoke while knowing smoking kills. I bought a home testing kit at a drugstore and got my results in Jamaica. Negative. However, I'm not past the infection window thing, so I'll test again after that.

12. I haven't written postcards in a while, and I haven't ever written a postcard to Jen. It's weird how we could be so close when we're together in Tokyo and so distant when we're 12,000 miles away. I'm just feeling overwhelmed with stuff to do, even though right now we are on vacation from teaching GET classes.

13. Francois, the (name I've given (Ai gave) to the) stuffed rabbit Colleen gave me, is being featured at the end of a music video being put together by a few members of the video project team. The students' basic idea was to have people begging for the love of an unavailable woman and I suggested Francois as the model for the woman. It's good that this will boost Francois' career, but it may give him gender issues considering people already think he's a girl when I introduce him to people. Ah well.

14. I haven't studied Japanese worth crap on this voyage. I'm often finding myself sick of the way I imagine I'll have to think to speak Japanese. It seems a very loosey goosey language where we must infer the meaning of everything that's spoken to find out what's being said.