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Panama terminal

1:45pm EST Wednesday 27 July 2005

We're docked in Cristobol, Panama now, which has been described as so dangerous that we must not leave the terminal. This rule has been set down as law for volunteers and paid staff, but the paying passengers are allowed to exit the terminal. Apparently there were several muggings last time, though.

Several booths are set up inside the terminal, hawking trinkets and T-shirts and crap that are (from my point of view) barely distinguishable from most of the other ports we've visited. There is an internet cafe with three computers, five flat screen monitors, and several empty desks. $2 per half hour.

I wrote a four page letter to Kellie on the Rody stationery that she sent to Jamaica for me! Okay; I'm going to write some emails to people and maybe send them from this port.

Kim put a woven bowl on her ponytail.

emails

Paige!

I really enjoyed hanging with you in NYC; thank you for showing me all
your favorites in your favorite city in the world!  Your input helped
me see the city as a place I could enjoy summer residence.  Too cold
in the winter, though!

I never got connected with my friend Frank again; I called him several
times on the second night but to no avail.

I distinctly noticed that by not attending the festival on the third
day I wouldn't be able to say bye-for-now, but I felt completely wiped
out and didn't think I'd enjoy/survive an adventure out in the sun.  I
trust you got to see many of your PB friends and had a blast and a half!

We are in Cristobol, Panama now; I wandered around the terminal a bit
but didn't see anything to pique my curiosity for long.  We
(volunteers and staff) have been disallowed to leave the terminal due
to the high likelihood of muggings.  I hope all the passengers who
venture out will have no problems.

     Love Love
      - Rob!

g

I haven't had internet access for over a week, so this email is not
intended to acknowledge any you may have sent recently.  Been crazy
busy on the ship until recently when we finished the second term of
classes.  This vacation doesn't include much free time on the ship
because we were in Jamaica two days ago, Panama today, and Costa Rica
in two days.  Wah wah wah complain complain about going to all these
countries around the world.

I'm listening to nin [WITH_TEETH] album; I like it alright, but I
daresay he has done better work.  There are no wack chords, time
signatures, stretched sounds, nor long builds that I enjoy in his
other albums, specifically (2.5 years of cobwebs being removed from my
brain) Further Down The Spiral, I believe.

I grant, however, I have only listened to the album two times through.

G

Empress of Britain: of 25,516 grt, was built by the Fairfield SB &
E. Co., Glasgow, in 1956 for the Canadian Pacific SS Co service between
Liverpool and Montreal.  In 1964 she was sold to the Greek Line and
renamed Queen Anna Maria and used on the Piraeus-New York service and
then for cruising.  In 1975 the ship was bought by Carnival Cruise of
Miami and renamed Carvivale.  Renamed Fiestamarina in 1993, she was
renamed Olympic in 1995 and then The Topaz in 1998, having been
purchased by Topaz International.

The Topaz is a rare survivor of the great postwar British
shipbuilding.  She sails today under a unique long term charter
agreement with the Japanese based Pb organization. Throughout
the nearly five decades since she entered service she evolved from a
cold weather transatlantic liner to a full-time cruise ship.

zzz complete Hitomi nightmare

1:30am EST Thursday 28 July 2005

While I was watching Family Guy on Brandt's DVD with Katt in my GET Room, Hitomi came and knocked on the door. She was jealous of me watching cartoons with Katt and I was not wanting to talk to Hitomi. Complete nightmare.

Katt left cause Hitomi wouldn't leave and Hitomi came into the room and did her old trick of locking me in the room with her and not letting me leave. She was like, "what were you doing?" and I'm like "relaxing" and she goes, "oh, go ahead. Relax." And I'm like, "fuck you, Hitomi; you know that's not fair."

It's been a complete nightmare having her on the ship. She literally was hanging onto me as I was trying to leave, and I was trying not to be violent with her, but it's like, "jesus Hitomi stop it," and I literally walked with her hanging onto me. I walked all the way to reception, bless her little heart, with her literally holding onto me and being dragged (not with me holding her) by holding onto me as she walked. Incredible.

I just wanted for a real person (at reception) to see this fucking insanity and somehow magically Natalie happened to come by and listened to my story for about 20+ minutes and then Natalie ended up talking to Hitomi for about 2+ hours.

This is a complete fuckin' nightmare.

Am I continuing to bring this nightmare on myself? Do I need to change more to keep it from happening? Do I want it to stop?