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1:59pm EST Friday 29 July 2005

We gain 1 hour tonight at the first midnight.

Tomorrow we will be in Puntarenas, Costa Rica.

Right now I'm going to work on my curriculum.

Hitomi finished

7:20pm EST Friday 29 July 2005

I got a letter from Hitomi that basically said she was hoping I would find a new life on the boat, and that she and I would find a newfound friendship. She also said that she didn't want to speak to me anymore.

PM ponderings

8:11pm

Worked, fell asleep, worked, watched Family Guy, went 1 minute late to Port Orientation, went to get my schedule, thought I could poo in time, was 1 minute late to GET meeting, got a letter from Hitomi that she said would be her last communication to me, and ate dinner sitting with Angie, not really talking about what was on the top of my brain.

On top of my brain is the awareness that before Pb, I had a goal of not sexing anyone on the ship. - no girlfriends, just Rob taking care of Rob's self. That hasn't 100% worked out as planned, and I am simply being aware of that.

I recognize part of the reason I sex is to feel good about myself. I want that positive input. I imagine if I can find a way to get that positive input from an internal (spiritual) place, that would ultimately be "better" for me. Less complicated / dangerous / angsty / needy.

I can imagine Kim Sawyer suggesting that I look at different aspects of my life and find small ways I can make positive adjustments in different parts, which will ultimately bring about a massive positive tsunami of change.

I also recall the results of a personality test saying I need 50% people time and 50% Rob time. Pb makes it easy to get people time. I gotta work for my Rob time, but that has been true since I started living in big cities (~ 1990).

So.

What does Rob Time look like?

1. writing in my journal

2. climbing trees

3. riding my bicycle

4. meditating

5. making lists of things to do

Is there one behind this list that I don't see yet?

Where does one write Written Goals? Do we need to see them every day? Just write them down on a piece of toilet paper and flush it? Write it on the bathroom mirror so we see in the morning? Dude in Momento tattooed it across his chest. He was one focused mofo. I imagine there's a balance somewhere between flushing and tattooing.

forgot CDF

8:30pm EST Friday 29 July 2005

Fuck. While crying to Katt about Hitomi (I am so thankful for Katt's support in this issue), Aki knocked on the door; I had forgotten about a meeting with my beloved Cheerful Dancing Fellows. Fuck fuck fuck fuck. They are worth more than that.

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Here is Naho, from CDF:

tomorrow is Costa Rica!

12:06am CST Saturday 30 July 2005

Wow. I'll be (back) in Costa Rica tomorrow!