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Today

10:59pm PDT Sunday 14 August 2005

Holy crap I haven't recorded anything yet today! We didn't have a holiday; the girls class was quiet of course and my second class was GREAT!!! They taught each other: Aki taught carimba, Naho taught us to make origami snails, and Yama taught about scuba diving. I didn't have to help them prepare anything or do anything myself. Fantastic!

I slept for a while, then lunch, then Hitomi came in and talked to me for 12 minutes, though I had said 10 minutes, and I tried to explain that she doesn't respect my boundaries and that's what pisses me off. She's asking foolish questions like, "am I your friend?" and "have I ever been your friend?" and I'm like, "use your brain; there are times that we have fun and times we don't."

I was just so overwhelmed that I went to the back of the boat and just put my hood over my head and cried. Katt saw me at tea-time and I ate some cake with her and some old Japanese guys, and then suddenly Katt was like, "welp, time to go!" and I was like, shit; you're leaving me alone with these guys?, which is nothing against them, but I just was not in the mood to be genki for them, but then she put her hand on my shoulder and was like, "let's go," and we left.

I recognize that *I* would not have excused myself so easily; I didn't *have* to go, though I may have wanted to go. I guess I don't put enough importance on my own needs for time alone.

I think I need to practice leaving.

We have finished Family Guy and Simpsons, so now we are in story telling mode and she's been telling me about her pets: big dog that puts up with Katt's harassments. And her big rabbit named Bunbunchun who goes crazy if Katt feeds the dog without feeding the rabbit.

I almost met George Meegan, who walked from the tip of South America to the top of Alaska. He's a cool cat, from what I can tell.

I told Katt about how I found my men's group and how Kim Sawyer taught me to create art in a spontaneous way instead of necessarily planned.

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12:00am AKDT Monday 15 August 2005

This is the second time it's been 12:00am today, but the first time for the new timezone.

I just talked to Natalie who felt sad about not having been able to work on planning a lesson she conceived. I feel thankful that I can listen to her concerns.