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AM Alaska PM summary

10:51am AKDT Saturday 20 August 2005

I didn't send a mass email in Alaska, our last port, which we left yesterday. I did have lots of fun there with Katt; we climbed the jeep trail of Marathon Mountain to the waterfalls. She almost made it, but chose not to ascend the steep slippery shale trail near the end. We had met four performers (in order of ascent: Josh, Danielle, Danielle, and Matt) from The Summit, one of the panamax cruise ships run by Celebrity Cruises. We've seen their ships at a few of the ports we've been at - Singapore, Acapulco, and Vancouver at least. They're quite identifiable with a big X on the top.

I climbed the rest of the shale trail with them and then we parted ways once we reached a peak. They went down to have lunch, and I went up to have a birds' eye view of their picnic. Wind about 2/3rds the strength of what jostled us on Mt Fuji (but not nearly as cold) crested the next peak I reached, which offered a fantastic view of the bay.

Ls

12:27pm AKDT Saturday 20 August 2005

I was nearly late for a lecture about continuing English studies in Japan; now I'm going to lunch with Katt in Yacht Club.

dvorak layout

8:19pm AKDT Saturday 20 August 2005

I'm considering trying to learn Dvorak layout keyboard again, but I remember what fobbed me off last time; I use ctrl-keys in emacs a lot, so I want ctrl to mean use the qwerty layout.

hitomi

11:34pm AKDT Saturday 20 August 2005

Played Silent Football: Katt, Francois, a shoe and I played first. Then Hitomi took the place of the shoe. Then Naho joined us. Naho moved Francois as if he were playing. We had fun.

I invited Hitomi to my GET classroom to show me pictures that she has been wanting to show me. She brought cookies, knowing I would like them. I worked hard not to eat all the cookies in 1 minute. She fed me the last cookie, which I shouldn't have accepted. I engulfed the entire cookie and she was like, "ah?" and wanted me to feed her some from my mouth. Pulled part of the cookie out of my mouth and offered it to her, but she didn't want it. She jokingly went in for a kiss again. I shut down, pulled away. I was like, "don't touch me," etc and just put up a total barrier. Looking at pictures was okay, but a tiny step toward that which even a grandma wouldn't call sex, I'm nixing. I wouldn't accept her hand when she wanted to make peace. I wouldn't let her hug me after she said she understood how I felt. I absolutely know how it feels to want a hug. But I can't let her in anymore.

"There is a history between us; I must have stronger boundaries."

She left, crying. I'm sorry it had to come to this/that.

zzz dvorak

11:45pm HST Saturday 20 August 2005

I have my keyboard in Dvorak layout now, with the logic being that if I write all these tapes out in Dvorak, I'll be a Dvorak typing mofo by the end of it. We are in a new timezone now.