Entries this day: Namibia Rei

Namibia

9:41am SAST Monday 30 January 2006 (玲の10500の日)

We're in Namibia where there's plenty of room and plenty of sand. We bounced 33 人 in a 15 person truck to an adventure center where we're scoping a DVD about the local offerings complete with pumpin' music and we're all, "YEAH!" and "will that music be playing as we VERB?" where VERB is dune buggy, sky dive, sandboard, paraglide, kayaking, hot air ballooning, horseback ridin', fishing, aerobatic flying, paint ball...

Sandboarding        $N300
2 hrs Dune biking   $N400
Sandboard + dune bikes $N500
Skydiving $N1350  $N1500 includes video  $N1800 includes external camera

WHY DID I NOT KNOW THIS???

I brought US$60.

どうしょう！

10:16am

Aight - 8 of us are going to sandboard.

ひとみと私といろいろな人もサンドボードをこれからします。　さっき、 スーパーに行って、食べ物を買いました。

4pm

Bigtime sandboarding fun!! I got a video while sliding down. I hope it turns out well. We used snowboards and masonite boards as high tech speed machines.

             W   H   O   O   O   S   H   !   !   !   !

Raymond and Constatine were our guides. Two cool cats, they.

I'm feeling a bit late to meet 玲 at the ship at 5, but I'm remaining relaxed.

Rei

1:30am SAST Tuesday 31 January 2006

Well.

I feel sad, foolish, and optimistic.

This was the night we ate dinner in Yacht Club in Namibia, I remarked on a huge crane with like 64 tires and hugemongous feet to lift all those tires off the ground and 130 tons of counterweights on the crane, she was like, "you're such a boy," (and I agreed), and walked on the port to see if the Panamax ship was in fact longer than Topaz (it isn't, really), watched the crane on the ship pick containers off trucks and the guys affix feet to the containers, and discussed how everything worked, and marveled at the 30 ton stones cut out of a quarry, walked toward town and tried to take a picture of Rei at 5TH RD and 5TH ST (but Hitomi's camera doesn't focus properly after its day at the sand dunes), and incredibly enjoyed sitting together down by the sea, watching three seals swiming forth and back along the shore, with their funny breathing patterns, swimming upside down, occasionally so close that Rei could *almost* touch them, and then we started to talk, and I took the big plunge and told Rei that I basically expected Hitomi to meet me at Yokohama port, and I wasn't sure what I would do if/when that happened.

I told Rei my biggest fear is that she'll become another casualty in my relationship landscape, and my second biggest fear is that she'll hear about my issues and bail out.

She didn't bail. But she agreed with my realization that we should stop being so close, and that I need to handle stuff with Hitomi no matter what else, and I shouldn't get involved with anyone while I'm still confuzzled with someone.

At one point I said I needed alone time, during which time I intended to cry then go to bed, but we continued to talk through it and things were somehow made optimistic in the end.