Entries this day: Dream No_girlfriend!! Spokesman_for_the_Chief zzz_Eri

Dream

6:58am ANAT Saturday 18 March 2006 (day 13142)

I was kissing on Tomoyo, but just a little bit because I knew it would be nothing but trouble; I kept making excuses and it was just silly.

No girlfriend!!

6:59am ANAT Saturday 18 March 2006 (day 13142)

I've made this filename show up as an "excited" entry only because I don't have an "amazing" category.

This morning, laying quietly, following my breathing and wondering about the significance of the dream, I started to list different potential girlfriend girls, and thought if my breathing changes, basically like I "catch my breath" or some physiological change due to thinking of that woman, I'll know she is of some signficance in my life. I listed only women who are on the ship. Then, for good measure, I listed Matt, Carl, Dan, and then myself.

The list was about 15 names long probably. Breathing remained smooth for all names, including my own.

But:

Just as I thought my name, the overhead speaker PING PONGed its signal that there was about to be an announcement. It Ping Ponged just as I said my name. I'm taking that as a sign. I just need to focus on myself. Really. For now, at least.

The ping pong and announcement was the first announcement by Tokomotosan, the annoyingly slow "soothing" voice of Topaz. Drives most GET Ts batty. But, he's super consistent and probably just what the Japanese passengers like. I guess. But anyway, he *always* ping pongs and talks right at 7:07 am. It's just his thing. This morning he ping ponged at 6:50 am or so. Basically there's no way I could have subconsciously known he was about to ping pong because it was 7:07. That shit was magic.

Spokesman for the Chief

8:12pm ANAT Saturday 18 March 2006 (day 13142)

Today, by semi-jokingly volunteering to be the Chief of the GET "tribe," I ended up being the spokesperson for the Shizuo, who was nominated as Chief. At the cultural exchange, I was given a place of honor, seated opposite the actual chief of the village who hosted us as everyone did their dances and such.

They served us cava, which is basically a mixture of dried peppers (not spicy) and water, which can be prepared to the desired strength by using more or less water.

zzz Eri

12:12am ANAT Sunday 19 March 2006 (day 13143)

Argh. Talked to Eri a lot tonight; on the day we were in Suva, she said she has a boyfriend named Mike (she cried when she said how lonely she has been without being able to see him), so I have been in "hands off" mode talking to her, but she is just like so perfect;;; my God how I look forward to having a partner as cool as her. How can two parts of my brain be so opposite? I'm like so jealous of him for having her and so happy for him to have her and so fucking confuzzled in my head.

What is going on in my crazy mind?

She told me that I wasn't totally wack, but just having normal desires that everyone has.

Argh.