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Tomoko and Sumidasan

5:37pm JST Sunday 02 April 2006 (day 13157)

Big chow and big fun at TGI Fridays with Tomoko and Sumidasan, then big dessert and big singing at karaoke for two hours with them at a karaoke place with a good number of English songs, but still no "Rabbit Run" by Eminem.

Back to Jesse's now for final prep to TJ Bike my way outta here. Not really sure if I should try to go north and plant rice at Aya's first, or head more directly to Kyoto. Sumida and Tomoko said they'd enjoy meeting me in Kyoto before or after my meditation. I'd like that.

Tonight

11:29pm JST Sunday 02 April 2006 (day 13157)

Been slowly procrastinating before packing.. though it's been a bit productive: I have determined that I don't have a map book for western Japan, so I printed some maps from mapion.co.jp. I've basically decided to not start heading east to help Aya's family plant rice; it would take basically four or five days out of the time I have remaining to get to Kyoto (a full day to get there, two or three days there to plant rice, then a day to get back). Gotta be there by the 25th.

Ironically, though, she's the only person I've heard from who has sent me a map (except Craig at the Vipasanna mediation center, thank goodness) for how to get to the location. I don't expect people to be online to send me maps every day, but I'm just noticing the irony. Also interesting: she is still in Tokyo, and not actually at her house yet.

Anyway, who cares??? I have to pack pack pack, jack.

cannot do this

11:42pm JST Sunday 02 April 2006 (day 13157)

I'm just sick with fear about starting my bike ride. What the fucking fuck am I thinking? How the hell am I going to do this shit? My back tire doesn't even stay inflated for more than a few hours, if that long (I haven't tested). This is just stupid. I want to give up and just go straight home to Texas. Or California. Or Hawaii. Fuck this stupidness.

zz back in Tokyo, just about to go go go!

back in Tokyo, just about to go go go!

Hello from Tokyo!

I'm feeling like this is really and truly the most ridiculous thing I could do...
("stupid" is the word that comes to mind).  I've told everyone that I'm going to
ride my bicycle (TJ Bike) to Kyoto.  Starting tomorrow.  Right after lunch with
Natalie in Takadanobaba.

How crazy am I?

I'm just paralyzed with fear of the thousand unknowns, not least of which is the
distinct absence of my map-book of western Japan, that part that includes Kyoto.

I just want to give up and buy a plane ticket and go home.

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In other news, I am back from the 52nd Global Voyage on PB!  The latter weeks of 
the voyage were more relaxed for me; I began meditating each morning for 30 minutes, 
and that helped calm my brain from stressing about the end of the voyage.

I don't think I've fully acclimated after the voyage; I have been having dreams
about my fellow GET Teachers; I'm still really tired.   Haven't caught up on email
yet, and a multi-week trip to Kyoto for a 10 day meditation won't really help with
that.

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It's not much of an update, but I just wanted to capture the self-induced turmoil
in my life and brain.

   Peace and Blessings to all!
    - Rob