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Dream

7:54am JST Friday 11 May 2007 (day 13561)

"Are we so stuck in this negative system that we don't even know that we're stuck?"

He paused for a long time before speaking. "Your question isn't even the right question to ask.... [so how can I answer itかな]"

"Okay, are we in a system that keeps us in third density ..."

He interrupted before I even finished my question.

I was like, "hey! don't fuckin' interrupt my question after you were the one who wanted me to repose it," and I started to sprint ahead of him on the trail, hopping over missing bridges and stuff over little gullies. Then he put on real speed and ran past me with ease, and tapped me on the shoulder like, "boop!" and didn't even react to my anger, but just played my own game and beat me soundly.

I was on the right track for questioning.

Reading Alex Collier

1:24pm JST Friday 11 May 2007 (day 13561)

Some of the stuff he says is too far out there for me to believe (yet?), but the underlying result I have already believed: we need to take responsibility for our own actions. We need to connect with our inner spirits. Our inner spirits are our connection to God. A book does not have all the answers. We have access to "all the answers" by asking within. "All the answers" doesn't have to mean all the answers, but everything we need to know at a given moment.

Yoshiyasu has a big pen

1:55am JST Saturday 12 May 2007 (day 13562)

Funniest funniest thing tonight. I had a new student; he had no notebook or anything. I was like, "where's your notebook?"

He was like, "I don't have a notebook,... but I have a big pen."

Fantastic!

about last night

9:21am JST Saturday 12 May 2007 (day 13562)

Basically Kim had suggested that by my trying to "protect" her feelings, I was not respecting her, not respecting myself, not allowing to work the work I had done to make a clean disconnect possible.

Subsequently suggested to gently not bring up the topic out of the blue, but if she asks, then tell.

She asked; I told; she cried; I cried. In the end, I also told her the thought process by which I wasn't going to tell her, and the one by which I did tell her. That seemed to help, かな。