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Before psychopomp

6:07am JST Friday 29 June 2007 (day 13610)

I'm going to do a psychopomp training over the next three days.

Psychopomp day 1

7:12pm JST Friday 29 June 2007 (day 13610)

That was pretty cool.

I took copious notes in my book titled _ROB'S RUNES_ and subtitled today _and other spiritual stuff_:

29 JUNE 2007 (金)

Psychopomp Training

with Kevin Turner

This is not an official TMI course.

We all operate on all levels of reality, all of which are right here right now.

Kevin's first Lifeline course gave no confirmation; he thought he made it all up. However, on the second time, he got confirmation.

This imaginary monkey suit self disconnects from larger reality and just focuses on the 5 senses. It's not *bad*, just happening. Even though we know this monkey will be worm food, we pretend we won't. We deny death's imminence. Actual experience of death will help us understand the reality and not fear death.

All fear is ultimately fear of death.

(I'm not sure I agree.)

We are all connected. "Individual thought is all thought"

Before helping people tomorrow and the next day, we need to empathize with them, so today we are going to experience death. We'll do shamanism and hemisync today.

Sharing our experiences with others is valuable; we are an exploration team (20 people in workshop). Kevin has experienced learning more from peers in workshops than from the teacher.

- - - -

First exercise: Shamanic Self Soul Essence Retrieval.

Normally a shaman would do this for a member of his/her tribe member (within three days) after a sickness / trauma / shock. It could be a subtle or a gross experience. Anything that was more than we could handle at the time causes a bit of our self to split away, or to concentrate on hiding that experience from us, and is therefore unavailable to us.

We'll only be concerned with current lifetime soul retrieval today.

Connect with inner guidance at Focus 15 or say simply "I am looking for lost parts of myself that are willing to come back to help."

We'll be using Wave 5 Exploration of Focus 15.

These splintered parts of self can be in Focus 10, Focus 12, Focus 15 or elsewhere. Success can be in any variety of experiences, but don't have any expectations.

Experienced meeting Kevin at The Monroe Institute, and being told to turn off my cellphone here in our current room. Had a bit of a sleep during the process and some grrr at having to listen to the Japanese translation, but then a note of sadness and "I don't want to leave the natural English," though I'm not sure that's a direct translation. Maybe 'English' was 'Japanese' or simply 'language.'

Thankful for the experience and the English direction given through the stereo system during the exercise.

debriefing:

one guy felt pain in his shoulder and pain like his feet had been removed.

one girl got her self back from her friend Yoko.

one girl saw x-ray of her hip and went inside it. has had hip issues in C1. made friends with her body.

one guy saw red cheerful dressed girl in tunnel, a lake by a mountain, something that spun and fell

Kevin says: we are welcome to self guide: "what does this mean?" We are welcome to use imagination to get started. "what would it be like to have a lost part of my self returned?"

I AM LEARNING TO USE IMAGINATION AS A MEANS OF PERCEPTION.

This is a new part of our affirmations.

If nothing seems to be happening, ask what it would be like if it did happen.

Dreams, intuition, and imagination all come through the same doorway.

- - - -

noon JST

Sitting meditation: "I release all parts of others' souls taken or given to me."

This meditation featured releasing parts of souls from 仁美、玲、玲子, Kuni, Ka_trean, Wende, Christine, Amanda.... about 500+ women.

All the sadness of all the C1 breakups: releasable.

- - - -

3rd exercise: Going Home CD3 "Touring the Interstate"

Now that we have dropped off some ballast, we are going to go to Focus 27, The Park.

If any fear, hold love in your heart.

- a - f - t - e - r -

no attraction nor fear at any points (specifically not 21 - 26). In The Park F-27, I chilled with peeps and very emotionally like desperate to know, "I am ready to know why I am here on earth this time."

Answer was to love people and share and listen and not hold back love from others. たとえば, not from the woman next to me for whom I clammed up when she greeted me in Japanese this morning. A makeup can be to tell her I was feeling shy. Just keep trying to communicate with people and be happy and genki.

I didn't notice pain on the back of my head from the darkness goggles' strap until we exactly came back and reached Focus 21, which is supposed to be the edge of physical reality.

Creating art from the heart is part of love.

From Dr Elizabeth Kubler Ross, doctor of death studies, from the C1 perspective, physical death is to be avoided at any price. Five stages of dealing with death:

Denial
Anger (at what I didn't get to do)
Bargaining
Depression
Acceptance

- - - -

Fourth exercise, 3rd CD

Notice changes as we go through Focus levels; we are calibrating our system, yet understand they are just a system, as unreal as any other system. We are always in all levels all the time. Just learning to be conscious of the different levels is the task.

C1 - normal waking reality

F10 - mind awake, body asleep

F12 - expanded awareness

F15 - no time

F21 - edge of life/death

F22 - coma

F23 - recently died, maybe unaware of death, some confusion as to where they are, what happened, where to go. These are where most ghosts reside, but we need not fear them; they are just confused. Most of them are in their own little world, but some are still attached through fear or anger to C1.

F24 - F26 different religious belief system territories. (I assume there are countless numbers of these) mass hallucinations based on C1 conscious religious rites. People's religions tell them what will happen after death, and they believe / create this reality. People gravitate to like-minded hallucinators.

F27 - The Park, where we can just chill and relax and review what we experienced in life. Kevin also described this as a mass hallucination, so I'm not sure how it can be any "better" than F24-F26.

In this course, we are just going to go to F27, but we are welcome to go further if desired.

- - - - after the park - - - -

I made it to The Park

Hey, Chez; I'm in the park! Can you come visit me?

no response

Chez, Chez; I'm in the park! Can you come visit me?

no response

Chez, where are you?

[I wish to go wherever Chez is now. zooooom to Dallas.]

[Chez, sad:] I think I made a mistake. I did a bad thing.

Chez, baby, what happened?"

I did something wrong. It didn't work.

Chez, you're still here in Dallas? at the building? it's been 3 years, baby, you're dead. You did it. You jumped. Do you remember your funeral? People were sad. But they are moving on. here, baby, just give me a hug. You're okay. Let's go to a park I know where we can talk.

No? it's okay. you don't have to stay here now.

[guides? What do I do here? What would I do if I knew what to do?]

Hey Chez, let's go see your body. Your grave. See? you're dead. You're free. You don't have to stay here.

[I acknowledge this may be all my imagination, my grief. I release you, Chez.]

Okay, Chez, I have to go. Here is a white feather. With it I will contact you soon.

- - - -

Kevin: Shamen were original travelers between death and life. Often a teenager would fall very ill or into a coma or delirium. NDE and may meet ancestors or totem animals for journeys to other realms. Then, with this experience and practice (and recovery to C1), they could become intermediaries. With a 4 to 7 Hz drumbeat, they could induce consciousness to a border between sleep and wake, and then will themselves to go one way or another, to either upper realms or lower realms. (( now when the Christians came and interacted with these natives, there was a lot of confusion, given that the Christians often assumed any lower realms were associated with evil: Satan and hell. They weren't evil realms, just more focused on earth energy ))

In the next exercise, will only have drumbeats and our own willpower. No hemisync, no verbal suggestions, so set your intention now.

Some like this better than hemisync, and some aren't phased.

( I'm often not phased by hemisync, so no worries )

There exists an F-27 earth energy to which some people are encouraged to go.

A F T E R :

I experienced death (by drowning?) and tossed into a lake backwards, falling sinking slowly. not too fast, just slowly sinking to the bottom and resting on top of the muck, then fish ate my body and mud covered my bones and they just stayed there and I lost interest and went deeper, below the lake, following the sound of the drumming until I found a cave where the drummers with stoney faces were huge, bare chested with huge drums, drumming for me.

I wanted to hit a drum and tried, but my hand went right through it. So I walked through the drum, and then I walked into and through one of the drummers who didn't flinch even if he felt me. I danced to the rhythm and eventually I went over and sat with some elders against the wall and just listened. Lost interest again and went up up up up and tried to go to the upper F-27, but just stayed on earth's surface and semi listened to the drums and came to C1

My butt was sore, so I shifted my legs and sat in an upside down fetal-ish position to stretch my legs and muscles in a new way than they had been resting for hours.

4:23pm JST

I was about equally inspired by the drumming and my most complete hemisync experience, which may be saying something considering it was my first drumming exercise. About 1/2 and 1/2 the participants said one or the other may or may not have been better.

Kevin described my experience as a classic shamanic journey.

one woman came across a row of her-selves in coffins and chose one to communicate and merged

The Greeks say we drink from the River of Forgetfulness.

At birth we are like, "woah, what is all this?"

At 2 years old, we begin to believe it must be real.

At 5 years old, we are like, "I think there's something I'm forgetting; what was that??"

5 year old daydream a lot.

<em>I daydream a lot. Am I five?</em>

- - - -

Number six exercise: building a signpost map. After this we will make a ballad of our journey. Private navigation song just for me to use later if I like. Just another experience with which to become familiar with this journey.

Going Home CD 4: Moment of Revelation

- - - -

lost of sleeping for me. I remember going all the way to F21, but only vaguely remember being asked to grow larger and hold the earth / solar system in my arms.

My Ballad:

Mind awake body asleep
this time shall I conscious keep?
Focii, numbers, images
food for worms and spin aches
song is short but time がない
now I reach and touch the sky

- - - -

Last exercise: shamanic death rehearsal.

"To practice death is to practice freedom. he who has learned how to die has unlearned how to be a slave."

We will journey from the point of our death. The moment will come for all of us, some sooner than later; some of us are over halfway done. We won't likely have CDs to help us reach The Park. We will practice now our death, which may come as suddenly as a phone call.

while I shake this rattle, recite your ballad under your breath while standing at the edge of your death bed. When I strike the drum, you die.

But first, write a contract:

I, Rob 路武 ROB! agree to come back 
to full C1 consciousness because I 
love lasagna, ice cream, and 亜美。

- - - -

Well, that was less than hoped, but what I expected. I 'died,' fell back onto my pillows, called "little help? little help?" but no one came. "what would happen if I actually died?" nothing. I tried to imagine floating up, but nothing. Ah well.

The Pink Cow

7:20am JST Saturday 30 June 2007 (day 13611)

Met Ami in Shibuya last night, and we headed to The Pink Cow, where we were greeted with a European cheek kiss by Traci. Nice to be in that group now, instead of being greeted as first timers multiple times.

We happened to arrive on a buffet night, so Michael helped us find a table, and I went to order. But then he came back to the bar while I was ordering, and suggested we get the 1000 yen cheaper option instead of what he had suggested before because Traci had just realized the buffet was about to close in 20 minutes. I was like, "it's good customer service like this that keeps me coming back!"

The food was hugely plentiful, and we couldn't finish it all between us.

But *that*'s not why I'm writing.

I noticed a poster with a cool mosaic of pics on it, with the bottom right corner saying, "or maybe we should just buy more guns??" so it was obviously written by an English speaker promoting peace via sarcasm. Nice; I hadn't seen that before.

I was scoping each picture in between talking with Ami and eating, and I suddenly noticed a familiar picture that I had never seen before. It was of people jumping in the air next to a banister...

"That's (TSS The) Topaz!!"

It was the ship used by PB. "How did that picture get on this poster?"

I told Ami, and then I noticed a PB business card in the corner. Ami scoped it: Stacy.

Nice. Stacy takes thousands of pictures each voyage, and says that's why he comes up with a few good ones when people say how fantastic the pictures are, "well, when you take a lot of pictures, a few of them are bound to turn out." (Yeah, Tracy. You're a photographic genius and we all know it!)

I looked around the room and saw a huge 9 collage, and realized that must also be PB. I thanked Traci for supporting PB, and she was like, "always!" and, "it's lucky you got here in time to see it; it's going down after Sunday."

Wow.

I wrote Stacy a note and hung it on the back of the poster hopefully for him to see when they come get it.