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Dream Kerry big house

7:05am JST Monday 27 August 2007 (day 13669)

About to go chill in the hot tub of a big house, I had been given the keys and the alarm code, because the owners were going out somewhere. I poured water into the hot tub and was getting my other stuff together, when I wanted to go check the rest of the house. I thought about punching in the alarm code for security, but chose not to and just looked through the eyepiece instead. I saw a woman dressed in red coming up to the door. I didn't want to interact with anyone, so I backed up and went around into the kitchen, and by the time I had gone around, she was in the house! I hadn't heard her come in, but I confronted her, "hey; what are you doing in here?" and she calmly explained that she was the representative from the utility companies and was checking the usage.

I appraised how cooly she had said that, and I was like, "okay, you seem like a really detailed person; give me one more bit of proof that you are who you say," and I noticed she was drawing in a cool way on the poster in front of her. The poster looked all gray, but where she drew, an image was shown underneath the gray. She had written "Kerry" in lovely script, and she said something about a drum which turned out to imply she was going to throw a drum onto my toe to stop me from confronting her / chasing her. I was like, "wha??" when I realized what she had meant.

Making the world a better place

10:16am JST Monday 27 August 2007 (day 13669)

Very interesting point I just heard on part 4 of an interview of David Wilcock by Project Camelot. Talking about people who "are out to save the world" (that's me) "you can't be into it one week and not the next week. It's a spiritual path." (These are not perzact quotes, but generally the ideas as I understand them.)

Then he was saying if one intends to raise the level of consciousness, but doesn't follow their own teachings, the "negative greeting" (I think that's the word he's using for what I might call bad karma) is quite strong.

Earlier in the video, he was saying the path to enlightenment is deep meditation. That's where we can face the shadows that guard the gate to enlightenment. He specifically said the Monroe Institute tapes are a short circuit method, LSD is a short circuit method. The true way is through meditation.

Hmmmm.

Oh, he was saying that "good" is being supportive of people's free will, and "bad" is trying to affect others' free will.

And for those people (me) who bash on Bush and Friends, we are just bringing that negative energy into our lives; there's a part of me who wants to dominate and control people.

"If you're sending hate to them, you're perpetuating the cycle of hate. Hate only leads to hate. So you see the negative entity as being a person like you, part of the oneness that's confused because it believes in separation; it believes in pain and control and manipulating people.

"So you send love to the entity because you recognize that there's a part of yourself that's like that; there's a part of yourself that's manipulative and controlling and dominant.

"BUT, you also draw boundaries. Boundaries is the key. Boundaries is where you say I love you, but there are conditions, I'm not going to let you do this. I'm not gonna let you infringe on my space."

At the end of the interview he says, "all that's required to be able to go through this ascension is slightly 50% more service to others than service to self. You can still have a lot of flaws; you don't have to be perfect. Everybody gets to win in this game; it's very simple. Just try to help others as much as you can and that's it."

I'm taking the first line to mean, "slightly more service to others than service to self."

i group

10:07pm JST Monday 27 August 2007 (day 13669)

Just got back from I-group; it was my first meeting since I staffed the MKP weekend in Houston. David said he could see in my eyes that I had staffed; he said I looked more grounded. I told him that I could understand the difference as he was saying that. I was more able to look him in the eye as a man among men. Plus, I led the overall process tonight, which I hadn't done in quite a while.

watched Four Rooms

2:48am JST Tuesday 28 August 2007 (day 13670)

I just watched _Four Rooms_, partially written and directed by Quentin Tarantino.

Hahahahahahahaha!!! Fucking hilarious ending.