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Dekita

2:27pm JST Wednesday 14 November 2007 (day 13748)

Dekita (できた) means "finished" or "did it" or "done" or some such. I finished the bulk of the project on which I've been banging for a week. Now I just need to replace my ample debug printing things to comments (*) and test a few more times...

(*) I don't mean "comment them out," but to actually convert them into useful comments; apparently these debug points are where I was having questions, so, I should give the answers in comment form.

3:40pm JST

Cool. Had a problem at first after my first pass of making comments. Had to basically do it twice, though the second time I had a copy of the first time available. I'm not sure why the first time didn't work; the second time works, and from what I can see, the source code is the same.

Anyway, I'm going to show 中谷さん now.

3:55pm JST

Bleh. That was a bit less than the kudos I wanted. I'm like, "holy shit this screen in itself was so crazy hard!" and he's like, "okay, now we need the sum of these numbers to show up over *here*."

Yah yah fine. That's actually not gonna be too hard.

6:06pm JST

Cool; I was able to get the proof of concept of the next part done. Just need to move the code (same situation as before).

TV

1:06am JST Thursday 15 November 2007 (day 13749)

Tonight on the train, on the way home with Ami, I wasn't really in a great mood. Sorta sad, shamed feeling; I didn't want to look her in the eyes. Part of me wanted to break up. I couldn't really tag a reason for the feeling. The closest I can come is that I chatted with Catherine yesterday and really enjoyed high speed English catch-up chatter, and one of the things Catherine said was basically I should speak English more with Ami to help support her (Ami's) dream of going to school in the US.

We got home and Ami cooked (bless her) while I zonked out sleepin' after my meditation. She called me when she was done and I came down and enjoyed chowing, but didn't enjoy the TV being on. I had talked to her before about hating TV, especially inane Japanese TV, and after a bit she turned it off.

After dinner, I went to the 99 Shop to get a tupperware container (after leaving mine at Enio's apartment). Rode TJ Bike super fast (dangerously fast for how dark it was) but made it there and back intact and in record time.

The TV was back on, though at this point the show was not insipid, but Japanese World Cup Women's Volleyball.

We watched for a bit, and then I went upstairs to work on Castle of Dreams. I added a dragon parking area and dragon run-way, plus beefed up the entry with text from the original Castle of Dreams.

Ami came up and we finally talked about how I had been feeling. I told her my first paragraph above, and she explained that "going to school in the US" is not her number 1 dream; right now her number one thing is get out of debt (long story into which I will not go), and anyway, why wasn't I studying Japanese and following my dream?

I assured her (and myself?) that my dream is not the learn Japanese. Right now I'm not sure what is my dream, but I know what are the things I like to do: paint, write, give free hugs, play frisbee, program. So those are the things I'm doing. Painting my four pictures (this week I plan to find / search for a space to show them), writing Castle of Dreams, writing my daily journal, writing R.O.B.O.T., programming Smugmug extension, programming chatforest.com...

And I have no idea which / if any of these will turn into anything, but this is my understanding of what Steve Jobs suggested to do, and so I'm doing it. Doing what I want to do: using my creativity to create things and give them to the world.

If I watch TV, it's the antithesis of creativity. "Kill yer TV," I say, and I want Ami to do the same.

In the end of the conversation, Ami was all, "well, if we get a house together," etc etc and I have my computer and she has a TV, would it be okay? I was like, "yes, if you pay cash for the TV."

やった！