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AM Dream

4:40am JST Wednesday 27 February 2008 (day 13853)

Making a set of copies, we worked out a system using low grade paper: Starting with Yumiko, she would take two blank sheets and two written shets and merge them into the copier. Then I would hit print and do something to make all four sheets have content. Then the two boys would staple them ogether or something and put them in stacks.

The printing was a bit off when we used the brown paper, but I was like, "it's okay; do it for reals," and explained that the softer cheaper paper wasn't cut to the same dimensions, and it stretched a little bit in the printer.

We tried this a couple of times, and it worked fine once we reminded Yumiko that it started with her. She'd have to take the initiatie to grabe the two blank seets of paper.

Finally I was all, "aight we need to do 40 total, so let's do 38 more all at once so we only have to get her started one more time.

Dream

7:00am JST Wednesday 27 February 2008 (day 13853)

Kevin was going to do a presentation before an assembled audience of a few hundred people. I asked him jokingly if I could help, and he said seriously, "I would love that, but we'd need to coordinate at least once beforehand, but there's not enough time right now, as the show is just about to start. One of the things we'd need to do is use the same terminology when referring to the government offices in Houston. While you were saying the 'neighborhoods,' I think it's moe ccurate to say the 'administrative wards within the county.' There are some other things that I don't have time to go into right now, but I will be happy to next week when I see you again."

Francois Postcard!!

7:20am JST Wednesday 27 February 2008 (day 13853)

So happy and yet so sad to get a postcard from Francois!

I received it last night, and thought at first it must be a card from Joana, as she said she would email me soon. Then I noticed it was partially written in French, so I was surprised Joana would suddenly start using French with me. I saw "Francois" at the bottom, and was glad she gave her condolences, and then I realized it was from Francois, and that was his signature, and I just started to cry. and cry.

Went up to my room with tears starting, then bawlingly gasping crying in a lump on my bed for probably five minutes.

So sad that Francois is really gone.

So happy that he is okay and traveling as he wishes.

But mostly so so sososo happy that he is okay.

gasping bawling crying crying crying: so good for soul cleansing.

I have the card beside me, but I'm a bit hesitant to read it again; I don't really have time to bawlingly cry again this morning. Oh wait, actually I do. I leave in an hour and a half, not in half an hour.

But first I gotta go peeee.

7:39am JST

I read it again. no bawling, nor even a tear. I guess I got it all out last night. (all for now, at least)

Happy February!

Happy February!

HI everybody!

I hope this email finds everyone happy and well.  Generally speaking, I'm happy and
well in Tokyo, working on about 3 new projects since the last time I wrote a Rob
Update!

First Project, and an invitation to those who live in Tokyo: On Saturday, March
15th, I'll be hosting a screening of the movie Zeitgeist at The Pink Cow in
Shibuya.  There will actually be two screenings: 4pm and 10pm, *and* the Amazing
Pink Cow Buffet in between!  Please make your buffet reservations at
cowmail@thepinkcow.com so Traci will know how big a herd to feed!  The movie
screenings are free (and we'll have some movie DVDs to give away) so come on out
for one or both!
Directions: http://www.thepinkcow.com/
Oh, PS if you can't come, you can watch the movie online at
http://zeitgeistmovie.com/

Second Project: Painting!  I've been painting and drawing with reckless abandon,
though this time on canvases and not on walls and clothing as during childhood.  I
will have my first show in July! Though the opening party date is not yet set, it
will also be at The Pink Cow!

Third Project: meditation.  not sure if this is a project exactly, but i've started
meditating fairly consistently each morning.  also joined a group that has been
meeting weekly.

And, finally some bittersweet news.  Some of you know I haven't seen Francois for a
couple of weeks now.  Well, I just got a postcard from him last night.  I was moved
to tears!  So sad that he's moved on without me, but even more happy that he's
okay.

   I look forward to hearing what's up with you!

    Love Love
    - Rob! 

Work

7:18pm JST Wednesday 27 February 2008 (day 13853)

Um, not so productive at work in terms of work, but I did upload two (2) new versions of the 4th of 9 small canvases on which I've been working.

I got into a bit of a hurt-feelings miscommunication with a woman I met in Jerusalem back in 2005. I thought I noticed something in her ways with dealing with people and gave some feedback, but I noticed wrongly. I guess that can happen when we're working with this mere whisp of a communication method (email vs talking while sitting facing one another with full visual/aural/etc feedback)

Given that was the most emotionally difficult moment of my day, I'm quite blessed. Most emails bounced back and forth were lovely, including a nice surprise or two.

Was considering trying to install another php framework so I could add it to my log of PHP frameworks I've installed, but never quite got that far. Now I'm going to head home.

ami

12:01am JST Thursday 28 February 2008 (day 13854)

So giggly fun with Ami tonight. I painted upstairs while she cooked and then she called me and I was just so happy to have her cook for me, and living so much in love, that it was just great great great.

I asked her like, "how can I repay you? this hardly seems balanced..." and she pointed out some things I do for her. I was like, "but that's nothin'.." and she goes, "aight, well cooking is nothin'." awwwww..... so happy!!!

Upstairs, she was like, "aight; gimme a massage" in a seriously joking way. I go, "well, you didn't cook all that much tonight...." even more jokingly.

I was like, "I love you I love you I love you!" and thought about popping the question, but I was like, eeeek! and didn't do it. Need a better...... something. manner of presentation, AND a better assuredness that this is what I want!

After the massage, I showed her the postcard from Francois. Ami at first was like, "who sent this???" and I go, "as far as I know, Francois." We hugged and after a bit I realized she was crying. I held her longer and was happy both that she needed to cry and that she was able to cry.