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Dream

8:20am JST Monday 1 December 2008 (day 14131)

I was Hancock, impermeable to bullets, able to fly, able to fly through walls of buildings, living up in the attic of an Italian restaurant. While on the streets, I came across three women who were out for lunch or something. One of them asked me out on a date. In a not exactly patronizing voice, I was like, "okay, give me your business card and I'll meet you for lunch tomorrow."

She gave me her card and I flew away before she could even ask, "where shall we meet?" and I answered her back (from 200, 300, 400 meters away and counting), "I'll find you."

I knew the card was my only link to her, and that I had a tendency to forget things while in this dream state of consciousness so I had to try really hard to focus long enough to remember and maintain enough control of the dream to find her again the next day. I got into a fight with some bad guys and almost lost the business card; it had gotten ripped into two pieces, each of which were close to ripping into two pieces each. I had to stop fighting these guys and get the business card back without letting them know what was important to me. I saw it on the floor, so in a surprise move (as I was hovering by the ceiling), I flew straight down at the floor, catching the business card and crashing through floor by floor of the building at an angle until I exited the building.

Kagoshima plan

2:12pm JST Monday 1 December 2008 (day 14131)

I'll be going to Kagoshima all day December 18th. Woot!

Work

2:10pm JST Monday 1 December 2008 (day 14131)

Just had a meeting with Malek and Sho to show them the billing system. Everything is cool; just need to make one-off invoices strong enough to withstand their master-billing-record having a contract (and not succumb to the contract's sytem-clients) (hopefully today), and write the payment system tomorrow after Sho finds out which way we should go with payments.

But first, I gotta go "teach" Mr Komatsu. Hopefully he studied, as he promised he would 10 days ago.

ami near breakup

12:28am JST Tuesday 2 December 2008 (day 14132)

Long conversation with Ami, which I thought would end in breakup, but seems to have held together at the very end with a hug. Basically I sent an email to Hitomi today:

HI Hitomi

I just want to say thank you for making my blue knitted hats.  I started wearing them today because
of the cold weather.  Even though you and I don't see each other, I think of you whenever I wear
these hats.

I hope you are well.  I'd love to hear from you if you have a chance.

    Love Love
     - Rob

And I mentioned it offhandedly to Ami when I was getting full at dinner, and she started to wonder what would happen if Hitomi wanted to get back with me, and I fully lost my appetite, and Ami got mad that I didn't eat everything, and it spiraled down from there for a bit, and I thought she might pack up and leave right there, in which case I planned to warn her, "if you leave now (without talking), you're never coming back," but she didn't leave then, but she also didn't really talk, but I told her how I felt: sad that she wouldn't tell me what was going on in her brain, and I gave her time and time to think/brood/whatever, but still nothing forthcoming, and even less likely to talk so I was like, "I think it's time for you to go home," meant literally and a bit figuratively, and then she was like, "what?" and I go, "I'm wondering if I should ask for my keys back," and did a bit of quick triage to make sure she understood I was just thinking, and not asking, but fortunately, and finally, that question brought from her mind all the things she was thinking:

I'm selfish and chase girls and don't think about the future and all these other terrible things which are certainly true 100%, but not necessarily on the To Be Changed list. I told her that I didn't want to marry her, and she was like, "zero percent?" And I didn't appreciate the all-or-nothing answer so I was like, "yeah zero percent" and she was like, "I'm shocked; why would you say that?" and I'm like, "well you asked, so told you I don't want to get married." and went on to explain that I always give her my truth and that's all I want back.

more talking talking, mostly in Japanese, 50% vaguely understood, blah blah and then I was like, "so what do you want to do now?" which I felt was like, a time crossing; her answer would imply a great deal toward our (non)future. She was like, "you?" and I go, I want to hug you, and she's like, "me too," so we hugged and she headed home with good wishes and tidings, despite the gentle cold rain.

She called me when she got home (at my request) and I told her I want to talk more about this, like what will we do from here. She's like, "but you don't think about the future.." and I don't know if she meant it in a joking teasing way (I really hope she did, because it would have a great implication for her level of communication / maturity in this topic) or not, but I was like, "well, see you Wednesday," and played the "you hang up first" game for a bit until I got tired of it and hung up.