Entries this day: ISIS_101.05 ISIS_101.06 jax

ISIS 101.05

10:17am EST Tuesday 31 March 2009 (day 14251)

Stephanie with point on right chest.

Nothing at first.  This doesn't work.  I can't; I just want to do the right thing.  I love her
smile.  Tia, Ami, Angelina Jolie.  I want to make Ange smile.  [crying crying gasping crying]  I
just want to make her happy. I just want to be cute and funny.  Feels warm and fuzzy.  Warm wet
breathe easily.  wombspace

happy, dark, warm, nothing to do....  so nice.

Then, oh snap, I gotta go do something, but I can't remember what.  Can't stop it don't want to go.
Fuck stop it noooooo feet first blocking stop please

crying crying can't breathe

GASP!

first breath.  cold, bright, alone, don't know what to do why did I come back?  I can't remember....

I had a good reason, but I can't remember what it was.

I like colors.  bright colors, white red green blue yellow want to go over to the colors.  can't
move.  how do I move?  push push push want want want struggle struggle ongoing no going.  Sometimes
the colors come to me.

ISIS 101.06

10:22pm EST Tuesday 31 March 2009 (day 14251)

Neryl on xyphoid process.

blackness huge space bubble always with me.  Inside it I am safe and warm but it's sadness.

yes i see a light

Go to it.

back at Source, school, sitting, relaxing, basking

Open to what to do.  Aware of dark space in my heart.

[Click]  turn on the light.

Shine the light out through my heart.  To all beings, to all people, to all things.

That's part of my work on earth.

Ways to maintain the light

1. Breathe

2. Eat well

   1. Don't eat too much
   2. Bring carrots if concerned
   3. Learn to make granola bars
      • oats
      • honey

jax

11:34pm EST Tuesday 31 March 2009 (day 14251)

Good time whispering with Jacquelen, talking about her boyfriend Simon and my Ami and our respective lives and families. Everything from growing up to current family relationships to Clairvision work and experiences to taunting little brothers. Fun fun fun.