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ET disclosure survey

10:26am JST Sunday 25 October 2009 (day 14459)

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Work

10:26am JST Sunday 25 October 2009 (day 14459)

Worked until like 8:26pm and ran to Shibuya station to get my train at 8:35. Made it with a bit more than a minute to spare.

Got home and Alfonzo texted me basically saying come in at 9:30, but I already bought my ticket for tomorrow's train (8:44am). I imagine it will be fine.

Today's work included finishing the screen for editing user accounts, and making a screen for resetting forgotten passwords. I'm getting faster at coding in this environment.

late talkin

1:54am JST Monday 26 October 2009 (day 14460)

Up late talking to Soness, or getting a bit of a talking to by Soness for characterizing myself as the victim in a story of my relationship with Ami. Soness had come home while I was telling Anna about relationship with Ami after telling story of relationship with Hitomi combined with Hitomi coming on PB with me without telling me before she bought the tickets. I told Anna how I had stupidly kept letting Hitomi come back to my room for the sex and about the moment she told me she had gotten tickets. OGC --> OCC

I told the semi-extended remix, including how I didn't know Palestine from Pakistan when I boarded the ship, and how I had let Hitomi hold my stuff during that trip.. then had shifted to story of Ami and challenges of culture + language diffs. How I had wanted to get Ami to counseling to grieve her mother's death and how Ami had thought I meant couple's counseling for us. Then how Ami was really mad at me after she asked "so why did we go to counseling?"

That's about when Soness came in and was like, "you forgot something," and I'm like, "what?" and "I don't remember." "Really??" "It's apparently been erased from the memory banks."

She switched to Japanese, "あなたのわきしました," which I didn't know what that meant but apparently I did because it reminded me and I told Anna, "oh yeah, and while Ami was at her mom's funeral, I kissed another girl."

We hadn't seen Soness all weekend so she told us about her great shows today and how this one fan was all beaming smiles and dancing all the dances on the fourth row yesterday and the front row today.

I started working on my latest maze for 31 October art show as they discussed options for Soness and her mom in Thailand.

Anna went to bed after a bit and Soness was telling me she was a bit nervous about the Thailand trip, and then asked if she had said anything wrong tonight. "Well, I was a bit surprised when you said something about Ami," and Soness was like, "you were making yourself out to be the victim and when I heard you saying about Ami hitting you in the train station, I just wanted to laugh, because I knew you weren't blameless in this, I mean what girl would not think you were going to couple's counseling? I told you she would take it that way but you still went with her anyway what were you expecting? First of all I can't believe she stayed with you after you kissed Keiko, and secondly, just when it was time to take the relationship to the next level, that's when you ran away. It's like your old pattern. Let me ask you, did you cheat on Wende before you broke up with her?"

"Yeah, I must have; I was back and forth with Wende and Amanda for a while at first."

"And that's the girl you wanted to bring into my house?"

"No; completely different; that was, what's her name... Madeline."

"Ah Amanda, Madeline, there's Ms and As in there. And Ds."

"And Ns."

"What were you thinking when you went to Keiko's house?"

"I was thinking I had a lot of free time cause I wasn't seeing Ami while she was with her family; I had asked if I should go to the funeral, but in the end she said no because she would have to take care of me due to Japanese culture of an outside guest at a funeral so said it was too complicated so I didn't go. I called Keiko cause I had a lot of free time and went to her house where we talked about PB stuff and shared about Brandt dying; he was our mutual friend from PB. I was fixing the pocket in my pants"

"Were your pants on or off at the time?"

"They were on; it was these pants right here, and I just pulled the pocket out through this hole in the leg and fixed it this way, and she was physically closer than may have been necessary to fix pants but nothing happened and I finished fixing the pocket; she walked me out and at the very end I hugged her and was thinking man I'm never really going to see her again and just gave her a quick kiss on the lips a peck and then I haven't really seen her again."

"I thought you said you were groping and making out."

"Nooo that was a different situation; and it was just joking, not sexual. That was with what's her name Natalia from my old apartment I had moved my hand and accidentally hit her breast and she was like, "ooops" and then I did it again like jokingly, "oops oops oops" and it was never like anything was going to happen but more like 'hey you have breasts haha.'

"Well about Keiko, you don't go to Japanese girls house; you just don't do that in this culture."

And I'm thinking, I don't? who doesn't? "Well, maybe I made a mistake in that but I'll argue that things are different because we had been on PB together. It's a bond that most people just don't share."

Soness's face was like, don't give me that BS

"It's true! And yes, I went because I was feeling lonely, and I maybe probably shouldn't have gone but I'm impressed enough that I was presient if that's the right word thoughtful enough to not try to do more."

"Well, if you had done that to me, I would have gone ballistic. I think most women would."

I think you're projecting, or maybe I don't go for women who would go ballistic. "I know you would have."

"You run away just when it's the chance to step up and be a man."

I thought about this for a while. "Up to what would I have stepped at that time? I didn't want to be in the relationship."

"Exactly! That's what I've been saying; that's what's so obvious to me..."

"Well, things that are obvious to me are not always obvious to you. I know computers pretty well, but I don't see this as obvious."

(train arrive; to be continued maybe)