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Min on museum

(written 10:53pm JST Saturday 17 April 2010 (day 14633))

Jessica and I went to the Min-On Musical Instrument museum on Thursday. We slowly visited the different rooms, enjoying the performances and nice conversation. We were just fun and fine and silly and joking; it was great!! This was the first day we didn't talk about anything "heavy;" it was all light and fun conversation.

We went to lunch at a nearby non-smoking restaurant, enjoying Japanese style yummies (I forgot what we ordered) and more conversation.

Soness called just as we were finishing lunch to tell me her throat was hurting again. I encouraged her to cancel her lessons (she had) and sleep (she planned to). She asked if I could bring home some chicken soup on my way home, but did not ask me to leave any earlier than planned.

Jessica expressed concern and said she'd be "too worried about Soness" to relaxedly hang out with me. I took a few moments to explain that for many years I had tried to fulfill the slightest whim of women around me, and slowly come to resent that I wasn't taking care of myself, and therefore resent them. I'm trying hard to take care of myself and not lose my needs in the presence of requests from women. "But," I said, "Soness is feeling bad, and I'm going to go home to make sure she sleeps."

Jessica agreed, but later texted "I wish I were selfish enough to ask you please don't leave me :-)"

I go, "I like you all the more because you did not ask."

After a bit, though, things went all screwy. I wanted to make plans for our next outing, and mentioned that I couldn't meet her Sunday night because I'm going to a movie with Emiko (I had already told Jessica this, and already told her that we're not dating (neither me and Emiko nor me and Jessica are dating)). But this time when I texted it, it seems to have made her not want to meet me at all.

wtf?

soness

(written 11:11pm JST Saturday 17 April 2010 (day 14633))

When I got home, I found Soness still awake, but on her way to sleep. She slept with her head on my leg as I leaned back against the couch. That's when I took the picture of her and Nibbles both sleeping with their arms out. So cute!!