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mission

12:56pm JST Sunday 25 April 2010 (day 14641)

I arrived home last night at 1am. Soness was like, "so what's up?" but I could tell she wasn't actually asking that. She called me on dating while I'm supposedly not dating, first with Jessica and now two consecutive days with Lisa. Soness tried to listen, but mostly talked, then went to bed. I tried to maintain awareness of my magnitude, and lovingly reiki the whole situation, but mostly felt sadness and shame.

I cried a bit last night, and cried a lot more this morning and Soness was supportive in her way, not really letting me cry, but trying to be there for me.

We're pretty much better now. She says she's 100%; I'm like 95%.