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Back in Thailand

1:39pm HKT Monday 24 May 2010 (day 14670)

Arrived in Bangkok airport and went through immigration, which meant I had to pay 100 baht. I wasn't able to flirt, talk or even bribe (with ice cream!) my way out of it. I gave 120 baht to her and left the change kind of as a basskacwards nice-jerky thing to do. I had asked, "who gets the money?" and she was like "you just give it to me" and then I was like, "is it a tip?" God, I'm not so proud of this conversation, but I mainly wanted to know how I was supposed to know, esp. given that "someone downstairs" told me I had to exit after I said "I'm going to Chiang Mai."

Basically it ends up being 100 baht paid to the immigration guy in Bangkok. Do I get 100 baht back in Chiang Mai? Can I get through without going through immigration in Chiang Mai? If so, then why did I need to go through at all? So confuzzinged.

So I gave her 120 baht; she gave me 20 back, I tried to give it back to her, and she said, "nooo" and then I left it on the counter as I walked away.

I'm sorry, counter girl; I shouldn't have done that.

State of my Life Address

2:21pm HKT Monday 24 May 2010 (day 14670)

I forgot to write this while in Hong Kong, but I will include some elements from there.

State of My Life Address

1. In Hong Kong for the weekend, I attended Chris Howard's _Breakthrough to Success_, with a "yeah right" attitude going in, and a "whoohoo!" attitude going out.

2. While in Hong Kong, I lived near TST (Tsim Sha Tsu) on the MTR (train system) in a building called Chung King Mansions. The place was dominated by foreigners, who seemed to enjoy staying up late at night in the mall area on lower levels of the building, even when shops were closed.

3. I met several peeps during the conference, and will probably stay in touch with about 5 peeps at first and then 1 or 2.

4. Basically I went in with negative attitude because of my learned biases against NLP, Neuro Linguistic Programming.

   (( I first heard about it from Tony Robbins, in his books that I never really "got" and never finished. I met Helma, a good-crazy woman who said she's perceived NLP practioners as a bit "odd." I then met Tamara, a quirky beautiful hearted woman who was an NLP practicioner. Never learned anything from her, though I asked her if she could tell me a bit about it. Then I met Lisa, a beautiful and beautiful hearted woman who I really <3, and who has done NLP, and said she didn't really like the results / usage of it. ))

   During the weekend, either they NLPed my ass without me noticing, or I decided I could do the stuff not including NLP and that would be great, and then decided, well I might as well do it all because I don't have to use NLP if I don't like it, and perhaps I can guard against it a bit more effectively if I actually know some techniques.

5. During the event, I ran around the room and stood on my chair (not simultaneously), and yelled really loud (my throat is sore now), mostly because I was bored and was trying to stay awake and also because I wanted to "follow directions" of playing at Level 10.

6. Several of the women I met seemed to be making googly eyes at me like I could hook up with them if I wanted. Was it because I was running around and standing on my chair and yelled a lot during the conference?

7. In short, I thought, "what could it hurt to hang out with peeps who know how to make big money?" I know I have issues around money, asking for money, making money, feeling worthy of money. Don't I deserve to take care of myself and my family (original and future)?

8. Also, can't I blame Soness if it turns out to be shit? And, won't I have to blame myself if it turns out to be awesome?

I'm not sure why I've got some "blame Soness" thoughts coming up. Apparently it's from not wanting to take responsibility for myself. I'd rather be able to say "I told you so" to her, or her to say, "see? wasn't that great?" to me, as opposed to her saying, "look at where you could be had you done it..."

What's all this biznass about Soness?

over heated

2:53am ICT Tuesday 25 May 2010 (day 14671)

"Today" I walked home from the airport, and got pretty overheated / dehydrated. I mean not *bad* like dying in the middle of the Sahara, but I was super hot + headachey + diarrheaey "last night," and by last night I mean a few or more hours ago, so I bought eight 500 ml bottles of Gatorade, drank two of them, then took a cold shower until I was no longer hot. Then I slowly warmed up the water until it was a bit warm, but felt comfortable cause I wanted my body to not try to make more heat to counteract the cold water.

Awake now and feel basically normal, but about to zzzzzz.